The Bucket List

Chapter Twelve

Harry's POV

"Stop talking.. Just kiss me again.." I was stunned hearing her say those words

I don't know why she's asking me to kiss her again. Does she like it the way I love it? I'm just looking at her with my mouth half opened while she smiles..

And there's one thing running through my mind.. I'm scared..

I know, i'm a fucking coward and i'm the only one who can understand, why I never want to fall in love, why I never want to be attached with someone, with anything.. but Jennifer came, and she seems to be breaking all the walls i've built around me..

I try to made up my senses as I took a deep breath..

"This isn't right.. I mean, I shouldn't have done that.. It's just... I don't know.." I said looking down

"Oh... I'm really stupid to ask you to kiss me. I forgot that you're a fuckung bipolar" She said so pissed

"Are you angry because I didn't kiss you again?"

She spat a sarcastic laugh.,

"I'm angry because, I can't read you Harry!! I don't know why are you like this? Why sometimes you seemed to be so sweet then when it's my turn to act sweet to you, you always turned me down. what the hell is wrong with you?" She said

No Jennifer.. What is wrong with you?

Why is she making this so hard for me.. Why does she wants me to be sweet over her?

"I don't know okay?? Stop being sweet to me then.. Stop doing everything for me to like you. Just fucking stop..." I said so upset...

"I can't...."

She said as I looked at her carefully..

"I can't stop Hogwarts, and I don't even know why.. I don't know what you're thinking or feeling.. or why are we fighting over a kiss.. But, you're already so important to me, I can't just stop and pretend this never happened..." She said as I felt my heart beats faster than it ever does.

I've never felt this special in my life... but this can't happen

"You can.. Few more list to come and this is over. You're gonna go back to your real life, so am I.. Then, were gonna be over this.. Then we'll forget everything that happened.." I said trying to smile.

She didn't say anything as she looked down.. I need to do this, Because if I didn't i'm just gonna hurt her.. I know I will.. and I just can't let that happen. I realize that she's probably feeling the same way now, I should be happy, but I am more scared than happy

She then looked at me, and i'm surprised to see her sad, not pissed or angry..

"Don't say that.. Don't pretend, this is just something that you'll forget. Just tell me, why are you like this?"

"Like what?!"

"This. We've been together for two weeks now, we hugged, we laughed, I shared my stories, and now we just kissed, but it seem that I still know nothing about you.. I just want you to open up a bit more."

"I can't open up.. I don't open up with anyone, You just wouldn't understand."

"Then let me understand you.. Let me."

I chuckled.

"Nobody understands me.. And its fine with me. I'm used with this, so please stop forcing me to tell something about my fucked up life.. Let's just do this, and get over this whole thing.." I said