All I Need Is You

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<<<Continued from Chapter 12>>>

"Now I just gotta figure out how I'm going to get into Kaden's room. How many uses does that lockpick of yours have, Denis?"
Dani rested her back against the tree under the sandbox, messing with a fallen twig.
"I'm not really sure, but I have plenty of extras. I'd be more than happy to lend you one." Denis was busy drawing next to me in the sand, giving his cat creation a cute little necktie.

I couldn't help but cast glances over in the direction of the nurses as both Dani and Denis talked. Jake was there, standing nearby the two other nurses locked in discussion. My eyes cast downwards to the bars behind where they were, now a little more patched up and covered. I gulped as my mind flashed back to what I had tried to do last week.

"Why reminisce on such a pathetic failure?"

I sighed heavily.
No comfort in this familiarity.

My eyes fell back on Jake, who was observing two younger patients playing together on the seesaw.

"Wish he'd look your direction, you hopeless romantic?"

"You can stop staring at your boycrush now." Denis nudged my shoulder, pulling me back mentally from my trance. "Hehe.. Maybe I should call him over here, you should've seen Albert's face last time. He was so red!" Dani laughed.
"Let's not embarrass him any more-"
"Man why don't you ever let me hook cute couples up, I'll be right back!"
Dani stood up and ran over in the direction of the nurses, Denis calling out her name in an attempt to get her to stop. I felt like shrinking into my uniform out of embarrassment. "Albert I am so sorry, she can tend to be a little uncontrollable sometimes, can't exactly help it." Denis sat next to me, placing a hand on my shoulder. Dani came back shortly with Jake, a concerned look on his face.
"See sir, his face is all red. He might be overheating!" She exclaimed, coming over and standing next to me. "I'll take him inside, thank you for letting me know dear." He said. Denis rolled his eyes in annoyance but said nothing. I went to get up when he extended his hand but immediately fell back down.

Dani tripped me, the fuck?

"Ow! Why d-"

"Ohhh no it seems he has no balance either! Is he gonna be okay?!" She cried out, interrupting me. "Calm down Dani, I can carry him. Here-" I felt myself being lifted bridal-style despite my weak protests and squirming. It startled me how light I seemed to him, good God.
I gave Dani a death glare as she smiled and waved at me innocently, watching Jake take me inside. Denis wore a look of utter disappointment on his face.

I thought Jake was taking me to the Medical Bed, but when he took a turn to a different hallway I was proven wrong, instead heading in the direction of the Enrichment Garden. Even though he was holding me he managed to unlock one of the doors and open it, shutting it behind him when we got inside. "Uh-uhm what-what are w-we doing here?.." I stammered out the question.
He chuckled, being able to feel the vibrations so close to my own body felt... strange.
"It's easy to tell when someone's trying to embarrass you, darling. It's not even that sunny outside." He inquired, setting me gently onto my feet. "Oh- I-is it now?.." I nervously chuckled, avoiding his beautiful eyes staring at me.
"How about we have a seat? Come." He gently gripped my hand, leading me over to a bench in front of the Pride Tree. He took a seat and I sat next to him, feeling him about to retract his hand. "I-uh.. Can I sti-still hold your hand? Please?.." I murmured out. Why the fuck would I ask such a dumb question???
He gave me a soft smile with those pretty lips. "Of course, Albert."
We sat there in silence for a couple of minutes, my mind wrecked with nerves while he seemed to just be enjoying my company. I wanted to say something, anything to break the silence, but everytime I opened my mouth nothing came out. I had inattentively scooted closer to him, my limbs acting on their own again. I slowly leaned my head on his side, trying to conceal the slight trembling I was experiencing. He glanced down at me before lifting up a hand and ruffling my hair affectionately, my face reddening at the gesture. I closed my eyes, enjoying the comfort.

Listening to his steady breathing, gently caressing his hand with mine. It just felt so.. right. To be here in this blissful moment with him. Just us, alone.
...

I'm starting... to..

I think..

Wait.

Oh no.

"Do you feel no guilt?"

I opened my eyes, lifted my head and completely separated myself from Jake. He was taken back by the sudden movement, looking at me in confusion. When I stared back at him, my thoughts turned to static and I shuddered. I could easily tell I was becoming so overwhelmed with a certain, stupid emotion.

No no, this can't be happening.

It's not appropriate.

Have I been the only one in denial this whole time?

"Of course, you always deny even the most obvious things."

Jake leaned down towards me, close to face level.

Gently cupping my cheeks with his hands.

"Albert? Are you okay?" He asked.

I wanted to pull his hands off me, tell him to just leave me be so I could calm down, but I couldn't.

Why do I always have to physically react so strongly to such emotions??

I was going to do something I would regret, I can just feel it. I tried to utter out something in protest.

I think I need medical attention because I feel like I'm going to fucking faint. The silence was long and loud, seconds feeling more like minutes.

Finally I was managing to say something.

Let me speak.

I just need him to get me help. Or that Holy Tonic. Anything that'll make this urge go away.

"I-I need-"

"What do you need Albert?? What is it?" Jake asked, his concerned tone tearing, eating me up from the inside. My heart was melting, feeling like it was pouring out of my mouth.

"I.."
I paused. No. I can't say it. I might ruin everything, this is such a huge risk. Not in this state. Please keep quiet.

But my thoughts once again do not communicate with my mouth.

"I need you."

No.

Wait.

I didn't say that.

His face went from concern to confusion at.. my words?..

I didn't..

I couldn't-

I think I've lost control.

Please don't-

I couldn't help but allow myself to lean in closer to him despite his confused and worried expression, gripping his silky uniform and pulling him down just a little more. I wonder how oblivious he is to what my intentions are now.

I knew what was going to happen.

And I knew neither of us were truly prepared for such a traitorous and inappropriate thing to take place.

My head is spinning,

the whole room is spinning,

And yet my lips landed right onto his.