Colby Brock Angst

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Trigger warning: Mention of rape, fighting, Hospitals, car crashes, kidnapping, jail, Prison, panic attacks.

Title: therapy.

( This chapter is going to be based on colby going to therapy and talking about what happened in this book and his childhood which for the sake of the story isnt going to a good childhood. )

3rd POV:

Wednesday 2nd March.
Therapy. Day one

Colby sat in the waiting room of his therapists office. His leg bouncing up and down.

His eyes darted around the room. He was the only person in the waiting room

Your the only one crazy enough to need to be here

Colby shook his head trying to shake the thoughts away.
His head snapped up as the lady came out

"Cole Brock" She called and he stood up.

He slowly walked over to the women smiling slightly.

They walked into the office and colby sat down on the couch still shaking slightly.

"Hi Cole my name is Lisa, I'm here to help, I understand you've dealt with alot and needed help coping?" Lisa said as she sat down with a notebook.

"It's Uhm colby... I go by colby if that's.. Okay... Yeah I've delt with quite a bit of... Shit. Hoping you can help me with that without you know locking me up in a mental hospital." He laughed slightly.

"Can I ask why you don't like being called Cole?" She asked clicking her pen.

"People only call me Cole when im in trouble.. Everyone except for my mom.. She just calls me Cole.. But yeah.. Like even my own girlfriend will only call me Cole. If I've done something to like.. Piss her off.. Am I allowed to curse?" colby explained

"Okay ill keep that in mind I won't call you Cole don't worry and yes colby you can curse" she explained as she noticed colby picking at his nails.

"Does talking about this stuff make you anxious colby?" Lisa asked

"Is it obvious" He chuckled softly

"your in a safe space colby.. Anything you say cannot leave these walls." she explained.

Colby nodded.

"So from what I know your a YouTuber? When did that start talk to me about your childhood" Lisa asked and colby sucked in a breath.

"woah..my childhood that's.. That's a question. My childhood.. I guess my childhood was pretty crap.. Thanks to my dad.. He uh.. He never really cared about me.. My brother was always the favourite child and he used to make that very clear.." colby explained with a thick voice

" So you felt like you were being maybe emotionally and mentally neglected? " Lisa asked

"Kind Of... Like my dad was there..but he wasn't THERE, like he was there emotionally and mentally and physically for gage.. My older brother... But if I needed him.. It was always 'Figure it out on your own'... Its funny he used to tell me I was the kid they never wanted but had to keep. "

" What about your mom? "

" My mom is the sweetest most kindest person I've ever met which makes me wonder how the fuck she made me.. But she was always there. I'd come home and feel safe knowing she'd be at home. I didn't feel like that when it my dad home. Ironic her names lesa too but with an e instead of a I.. "Colby explained twisting his ring.

" What about your adult life.. How is that going" Lisa asked

"It's going for sure.. Uh... Well I've been through alot since living out in LA And it's been hard... Ive been kidnapped.. Raped.. Jumped.. Put in jail, put in prison.. And been in multiple car crashes" colby explained.

"Tell me about the kidnapping"

"Well its happened 3 times now.. The first time I was kidnapped by one of my fans dad's.. Held hostage for 2 weeks and had a bomb strapped to my chest after I tried to escape.. The second one me and my girlfriend were kidnapped.. They tortured me and tried to make me choose between killing her or them killing me.. I tried to shoot them but they ended up shooting me.. I survived luckily, the last time I was kidnapped they had me zip tied to a chair the entire time.. And I was assaulted.. Sexually and physically snd tortured.. They would electrocute me and force me into cold water for 10 minutes and boiling hot water for 5..theyd pour candle wax over me.. And just downright touture me.. They were working for like the black market.. They were trying to sell me. "colby explained his hands shaking as he spoke

" how did you get out"

"My brother.. Spent 4,500 dollars to get me...he pretended to be some guy interested in buying me.. He paid the guys 4,500 and rescued me like that" colby said

"What about you getting put in jail?" Lisa asked handing colby a rubber band noticing he was scratching his arms alot.

"I was arrested in 2019 for trespassing and have 2 fake ids in my wallet.. I was 22 and spent around 20 hours in jail.. I was filming a video when we got caught.." colby explained pinging the rubber band at his wrist.

"Did anything happen to you while you were in jail" Lisa asked

Colby nodded "I was raped.. And beaten severely..guess that's what happens when you look like me in jail" Colby chuckled softly.

"You mentioned prison? I know jail and prison are two completely different things why did you end up jn prison?" Lisa asked writing in the note book.

"My ex lied and said I was emotionally and physically abusive to her.." colby said his voice cracking.

"And were you?" Lisa asked

"No.. No she was towards me... But the judge didn't believe me.. Gave me 6 months in max security prison..." Colby said as a tear slid down his cheek..

"Okay colby.. I'm afriad that's all we have time for today but I'll see you next week same time okay?" Colby nodded and stood up
"And colby.. Don't hesitate to call me.. If your struggling" colby nodded and walked out.