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-𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐘-

"London I'm very proud of you taking this step & coming to therapy for your second session. I know it probably wasn't easy, but you did it. So I'm proud of you." My therapist said.

It definitely wasn't easy but ...
I had to try. Not just for me but for my kids.
Especially for my soon to be here grandchild ...
crazy as hell saying that.

I nodded & smiled without saying anything.
"So, how are you holding up with Milan's date approaching to give birth ?"

"Uh... I'm holding up pretty well for Milan. Putting on a poker face for her because she's been really anxious about the whole thing lately."

"Do you feel as though you're being supportive ? I know that was one of your number one concerns."
"Yeah actually...to be honest with you—I'm doing the best I can and the best I know how to do. This is new territory to me and well... im starting to see why my mama was so stressed when I was pregnant."

She nodded, "let's talk more about that. I feel like we talk so much about your kids... what about London ? Are you seeing a bit of yourself in Milan these days ?"

"Unfortunately, yes."
She tilted her head, not understanding, "why is that unfortunate?"
"Obviously I never wanted being a teen mom to be something that I could relate to my daughter on but... it's oddly brought us closer. I hate that this had to happen for us to get closer but... here we are."

"Do you see any strong attributes that you both share ?"
"She's very selfless...she tries to hide it with this mean girl persona but ... she cares so much about other people & I just know that this baby is gon be blessed with a great mom."

"So in this period in your life with Milan being pregnant ... is there anything you'd change?"

"How I reacted... I feel like it caused a huge shift between us that may not be able to be fixed & everyday I think about how I gave her an ultimatum and I just feel like the absolute worst mother.."

And that's my biggest fear...

—𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀𝐍 𝐏𝐎𝐕—

"Pray to God this baby don't have as fat of a head as you do... cuz gahdayum." Mekai said as he walked into the kitchen. This ho so disrespectful unprovokedddd !!

like who says that?
I flipped him off and mugged him, "you steady talkin bout somebody head as if yours ain't get stuck in between the stairwell when we was little. Da hell ?"

He rolled his eyes and laughed, "man fucc you. But on some real shi how you feeling lately?"

"Good... I'm real nervous tho."
He nodded, "understood. You talked to Meech in a while ?"
I shook my head, "nah..we been real distant lately since I mentioned the baby."

"I'll beat the fucc out him just let me know."
I chuckled, "and I know you will, but nah. If he don't wanna be apart of the baby life, that's only on him. Rather a parent that's never around than one that chooses when they want to be in the baby's life and when they don't. Ion got time fa it & im not gon put my child through it."

"look at you growing up and shi. Old Milan would've driven ha car through his crib with him still in it. Real growth."
"Hell yeahh. On my mommiana shit."