Love me or leave me

Chapter-38(Not more than my heart)

First time Magnus POV:

I don't know what happened inside my mind. He said we didn't meet before but when I kiss him my all nerves tickles.. my heart want to jump out of my chest.. my brain didn't work expect the voice. That voice said 'you knew him' but it faded when he touch my ass.

It felt good but the name 'Alexander' killed me it's very loud and I recognize it's my voice. Before I found out I pulled back from the breathless kiss. He looked at me with a confused face. I knew he thought I should regret but how I could say what is in my mind so I left as much as fast.

I started my car and drove. Once I came home I felt heavy headache. I sat on the couche while held my head. It's more painful than before. Some memories showing in front of my eyes. I closed my eyes and shouted. 'I love you Magnus' the man said.. I'm very happy..

I saw his eyes but it's blurred.. I couldn't take this pain. I cried my legs are weak. I grabbed every things in my house and crushed on the floor. After five minutes I fainted on the floor. Before I faint completely I saw his face in front my eyes.

When I opened my eyes I saw my room look like a mess. I slowly sat and hugged my legs. I didn't know what time now. I felt my heart and eyes are heavy. I again started crying. It's him Alexander.

After that heavy pain my memories are back but I don't know how it's happened but now I only think about him. He loves me he broke me again he came back to me. He lied again I couldn't stop my tears it's flowing down. I thought he's my life but he throwing me like I'm an object. I started crying loudly.

After two days I'm living in my house like a prisoner. I don't want to see anyone. I don't want anyone. After he left me I live like a dead man. I didn't talk to my mother properly I knew I hurt her but she don't know someone gave pain to me like hell. I didn't clean my house I didn't eat anything.

I knew I look like a ghost because I couldn't sleep. His memories his betrayal killing me. My thoughts interrupt the knock. Before I opened I pray every god but what I do god is busy. I saw the man who broke my heart into thousand pieces before two years. He looked at me concerned.

Alec: What happened to you Magnus?
'Oh his voice' he moved close to me try to caresses my face but I moved back. So he pulled his hand back. I looked down I don't want to see his face maybe it's because of anger and fear. If he touch me I'll hug him because I missed him even though I'm angry at him. I want to close the door before my emotions explore.

Third person pov:
Alec put his hand on the door before Magnus close it. Magnus annoyed and try to close it again but that strong hand stopped.
Alec: Magnus are you okay? Why are you acting weird? Is something happened?
But Magnus didn't say anything. Alec saw things at shattered on the floor. He pushed Magnus inside and closed the door behind him.

Mags: What the hell?
But Alec saw blood on the floor his heart beat fast when he saw it's coming from Magnus sole. Before Magnus say anything Alec lifted him in a bridal style.
Mags: Hey.. What are you doing?
But Alec put him on the sofa. Tears fell down on Magnus from Alec's eyes when he pulled back himself. Magnus looked at him.
Alec: What happened? Why do you punish yourself?

He sobbed and ran into Magnus room. Alec knew Magnus always have first aid box in his bathroom cupboard. He came with a box in his hand.
Mags: What are you doing? Get out.. I don't want your help Alexander..
Alec looked at him shockingly. He already had thought Magnus got back his memories but that is now confirm but he opened the box and took sterile for wipe the bloods. He held Magnus legs but before he touch him Magnus stopped him.

Mags: Get out..
Alec: Please let me do.. We can talk after some time.. Your legs are bleeding..
He again try to held his legs but Magnus moved Alec wiped his tears and took the scissor. Magnus looked at him confused. Alec stood up and put the scissor edges near his neck. Magnus shocked.
Mags: Alexander put the scissor down now.. What are you doing?