The Creature (Eyeless Jack X Reader)

(Not Story Content!!) Life Update: Why I haven't updated in a while

Hey guys! I just wanted to give you all an update on why I haven't updated in a hot minute. I know some of you don't really care/notice that it's been so long but I know there are definitely some people eagerly awaiting the next chapter so I wanted to fill you in on what's going on in my life. We about to get real personal here :D

First of all, I recently graduated college a semester early (yay!), and that has been weirdly stressful. I obviously have a lot more time now, but I'm trying to find work while having no idea what I wanna do so you can see how this is hard. The job market is also ROUGHHH rn. I know most of my readers are a little younger or at least still living with their parents so you may not relate. But for real enjoy that shit while you can because life quickly gets very difficult once you move out :D

I also had some medical issues at the end of the year and the beginning of this one so I was dealing with that. And some other mental health (as per usual) and substance use stuff. I'm doing better now! Or at least I was haha. Which brings me to my next point. 

I recently met an AMAZING guy. Like man of my dreams type shit ya know? Anyway, that was so great :D and then it wasn't aha. He's kind of going through stuff right now and hasn't been talking to me for a while so I'm wrapping my head around that because he switched up REAL fast :D. For some people, this isn't a big deal but personally, I have ~Daddy Issues~ and ~Anxiety~ so this kind of stuff is actually really hard for me.  I just get really anxious about it and can't eat because I feel nauseous and stuff. Which is probably why I'm talking about it here aha. 

SO that's my super exciting life right now in a nutshell. We're smiling :D through the pain. Because of my last point, writing about love and cute shit is not exactly what I want to do because I'm sad and angry about love right now :D. BUT one of two things will happen: We'll talk and everything will be Gucci and I'll be back to loving love OR I'll never hear from him again and I'll be like this for a bit and I'll eventually get over it and be back to normal. Either way, I'll be okay. I know this whole post was basically a rant and stuff but at the end of the day, I am okay and you guys don't need to worry about me. And while I have you here, I want to try to end this negative post with something positive, especially since I know a good amount of you are younger than me. So here it is: 

I know I just told you all the ways my life is messed up right now  (:D) and I know some of you can relate, maybe not with my exact problems but with the overall chaotic life. I have personally had MULTIPLE crises like this one, unfortunately, but they ALWAYS get better. I know this is soooooo oversaid and I actually got annoyed and ignored it for a long time because it seems like such a stupid thing to say to someone who's struggling but I've learned that it seriously is true. It doesn't matter what kind of thing you're going through, it will ALWAYS get better eventually. It might not be as soon as you'd like it to be, but sometimes you just have to endure that kind of stuff before things get better. And trust me, since I'm in it right now, the feelings suck. The feelings I have are so strong and sometimes it feels like it will never end, but it does. Pretty much all of us have had some sort of thing happen that felt awful and unmanageable at the time and now we look back at it pretty indifferently. Sure, you may still be upset about it, but it's not as debilitating. Hopefully, you can relate to that? Point is, we've all gone through the tough stuff and we've all made it through. And we're all probably going to have even more in life (Wow, that's a positive, fun thought, Author!)

ANYWHO, I've been talking way too long for not having posted any content haha. So, just bear with me until my life gets a little less messy and I'll be back <3