Haerin's POV:
Hyein had brought me a toothbrush and some other toiletries.
After brushing my teeth, I wash my face one more time.
I've been doing that a lot ever since the news.
I still can't believe this is my reality.
I've been living with drug dealers for months.
I always suspected something, all the signs, but I never dared to start imagining what I would do if it was true. If the signs had lead to anything.
I assumed them to be a part of some kind of mafia, but it was so out of line that I'd laugh it off.
I wish I could laugh this off too, that this is all in my head.
I'll wake up any second now.
I splash water on my face one more time and look at my reflection in the mirror. How do I get out of this?
I walk out and switch the lights off, opening the door to look for Hanni, she's sitting in front of my door.
"I'm going to sleep." I say, and she turns at the sound of my voice.
"Okay, sweet dreams." her voice is quiet, I nod, closing the door again, before she stops the motion with her hand.
"What?" I say sternly.
"I'm sorry, I never wanted any of this." she says, her eyes piercing into mine.
"I'm sorry too." I mumble and close the door, trying my hardest not to cry, I feel like I'm being choked.
I turn off all the lights and get under my sheets, I already know I'm not going to get any sleep, but laying in my bed is enough to make me calm down (a/n: i feel u girl being in bed is the most relaxing thing ever)
I hate myself, I hate myself so much for not pushing harder for answers; I allowed them to shut me up, push me around, and I didn't fight back.
And through it all, I made a place for them in my heart, I let them in. I let them stay.
And even though I hate them, and all the trust I held for them has been ripped away, I can't fight the small ache I feel for them.
The small rush I get thinking about them.
I had no one else, not even my own mother, I just had them.
Of course, of course, I'd get attached, what else could I have done?
They were so easy to love.
I loved them.
I squeeze my eyes harder, fighting the tears I feel building up in my eyes again, it's so hard not ro cry.
I don't want to hate them, how could I not? They lied, and they kept lying for days and days, not even trying to explain anything to me.
I was just like any other new anchor, they told me the same lie they told everyone else, medical equipment, I wasn't special.
I thought I was special.
I put my hand over my face, I thought I meant something, I thought they cared for me, I thought I was different to them, I was so stupid.
It all doesn't matter anymore.
It all doesn't matter.
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I got no sleep last night.
I was just tossing and turning in my bed, trying to listen to the conversations the girls had outside when they were switching for look-out.
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All mine (Kittyz)
Romance"you're all mine; the hair, the lips, the body, it's all mine." also just to clarify things, everyone in this story will be from legal age. and please keep in mind that this is just an ff, everything is incorrect. and one last thing, in this story h...