Reincarnated Souls || JJK

39: '𝐓𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐬 𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 ☁︎

"𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒌𝒚 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒔 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒗𝒆. 𝑶𝒉, 𝒊 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆. 𝑾𝒆'𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒏 𝒂 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒖𝒕 𝒍i𝒏𝒆. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒆. 𝑰𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕. 𝑰 𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊'𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 '𝑻𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒔 𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕"

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-Minji-

If someone asks me what would be the scariest thing about life. I'd say existing without living and loving a person. Yes, love. One of the lethal emotions I've ever side stepped into. It is a kindling flame of warmth yet the deliberate thought floating across its mind is what is lethal. You can be either lucky or just terribly fallen into an abyss. Love? Oh it can destruct us. Weave the debris of our soul into one. Claw us apart using its malevolent claws of agony. I loathe it. But I've fallen in love with love itself. The feeling it injects into my fumbling veins. I'm thirsty, I'm in need. But I'm scared too. Like jumping off a cliff, with the intentions that you'll just drop dead but what awaits you at the lower end is unseen to your eyes. Sometimes you take up the risk and jump, destroying the cowardice. Only for you to float and end up in paradise of infinite laughs. But the delusions can cease because it can also be direct death- worse. A living torment. Shoved into a blazing land, slowly nibbling your heart and ripping apart your body. Skin by skin. This is why. Falling in love is a frightening thing. Love and let it destroy you.

I've been destroyed once. Must I allow myself to be destroyed again?

Should I just brush off the feeling? Flick it over my tongue and gulp it back down. Since I'm feeling the emotions ambling up my body and rising the layers of my skin. I felt frightened by my own mind- was this just false belief? Or what I'm feeling is actually a feeling. No it can't be. After this many years, being attracted to a person was typical. But having this much of deep desire within 2 months? Was it even possible. Overwhelming devils accompanied me in bed. I should really be finding solace over here and numbing off all the sore muscles of constant work all these days. But when thoughts occupy, it never leaves behind a human, does it? I hate having to sit in silence with my mind. Not like this. When it's so dishevelled and messy. Out of places, out of gravity.

It's been only now 2 days, now 3rd since I'm locked between these walls. Since I've been plagued with this sickness. I called in for a 3-day off. I was almost getting better. Yet my mind kept me scorching.

I groaned at the notification pop. Eunwoo.

The kiss. One of the ethereal moments. I've injected that memory into my veins and I don't wish that drug to desert me anytime. Since then things between us have been so good. No more snarky remarks, if we get time alone we lock ourselves into a vacant room and just kiss or pass small talk. Nothing serious. And that's what is driving me insane.

"How are you feeling?" His message read. I already told him I was ok. Yet he kept pestering. Almost annoying.

"I told you, I'm feeling ok. Tmrw I'll come"