Finding Out Secrets (The Covenant Fanfiction)

Chapter 57

Chapter 57:

The room was a mess. I was a mess. What we know so far is that Pogue hates me and I have feelings for someone who will never have feelings for me and everyone hates me.

"Everyone does hate you, Blair. They see you as a threat. They want to control you. You're too powerful to control," Lillian whispers in my mind.

"Go away," I say out loud to her.

"You dumb dumb child. Don't you see what is happening? The hate is built and bred in them. You saved your brother's life, would have given your own for him to live and he calls you selfish for standing up for yourself. For demanding control of your life. And that womanizer, oh Blair, can't you have better taste? At least have feelings for someone who wouldn't throw you away like garbage after they've gotten their use out of you."

Her words stabbed my already bleeding wounds. Was she right? Would they all just end up hating me? Has Reid only been nice to me this entire time or would he treat me like that if there ever was something?

I linger on her words but stop myself. No, this is Lillian. She wants me to turn against them.

"You're not going to manipulate me Lillian," I say. I hear her laugh at my words but I try to form a mental wall in my mind. I didn't know if it was working since I hadn't dealt with her while I was awake but I tried my best to keep her out of my thoughts. I couldn't see her ghostly shape in my mind so I shoved her voice far away until I could no longer hear that sinister laughter.

Sweat coated my forehead, neck, and chest as the familiar thumping in my head made itself known. I looked around at the mess that I had created in the room. Not only was my stuff scattered but so was Kate and Sarah's. I let out a groan as I started to sort through everything, separating all of our things.

The door opened as I was cleaning and Kate and Sarah had entered. They looked around at the mess that I was cleaning and I gave them an apologetic look. "Sorry, I lost control," I said, going back to putting up the papers.

"It's okay," Sarah sweetly said, putting her bag down on her bed and helping.

"Today has been a crazy day for you," Kate said, doing the same. "I'd be surprised if you were completely fine."

I nodded at them and stayed silent as I picked the last of the stuff up. "Don't you guys have class?" I asked, looking at the clock on the side of my bed. Last period has started ten minutes ago.

"Since it's senior year, we are in a senior research class. Most of the time, we are told to go work on our year long project so we don't really need to show up for class," Kate explained.

"Perks for being seniors," I said, giving a fake smile.

"Blair, you know Pogue didn't mean anything he said right?" Sarah said.

Oh so we are going to talk about it.

Great.

"He has a temper," Kate chimed in. "It kind of runs in the family," she added.

I couldn't argue with her there. I do tend to give in to my anger most times and hold on to it. It reminded me of him, of Pogue's father, my father, how he and I are similar. It's where I get it from it seems. That makes me even angrier.

"I just hope we can get past this," I sighed, not really wanting to get into it more. I was already fighting the "what ifs" in my head. I didn't want to have to say them out loud for everyone to hear and see that deep in me.

"He's pretty hurt," Kate said. "Was there a reason why you couldn't have told him before you went?" she asked. I knew she was stuck in the middle. She was his girlfriend, the person he confided in the most and was there for him.