Love Buzz - Kurt Cobain Fanfic

Chapter Twenty Nine

I awoke to the sound of Frances giggling uncontrollably. This immediately brought a smile to my face and I rolled out of bed to find Kurt playing with her in the bedroom floor. Its insane how much can change overnight. Thinking of the incident that happened the night before made my stomach churn. 'What if he does it again? And he will.' I thought to myself as a huge lump appeared in my throat. "Dada!" Frances cooed as she grinned up at Kurt. 'Meanwhile our daughter has spoken her first words. What great timing.' I sarcastically thought to myself. I couldn't help but be proud of Frances. Even though I was insanely terrified of what's to come, I smiled each time Frances tried to talk to her daddy. But, as I remembered what was happening to her father, my heart broke more and more. Frances had no idea what was happening, for the better, I guess. "Kurt, lets get this over with." I mumbled as I watched him look down at Frances with sad eyes. "I'm so sorry Jade. " He said as he looked at me with tears in his eyes. "Your daughter needs you around in her life, Kurt. Look at her. She loves you so much. You heard her first words, Kurt. You have to stop this, for HER. If not for you, if not for me or us, then do it for her." I couldn't fight the tears anymore after I spoke these words. "Just trust that I won't die, okay? If I come home high, don't question it. Unless my life is in danger, let it go and wait till i'm sober. At this point, its the best way for this situation." Kurt mumbled. I didn't know what to say. I guess he was right. Kurt was addicted and I didn't know what to do other than make sure he didn't die. My stomach felt sick at this point. "I'll be back, i'm gonna smoke." I mumbled as I got up and stepped out onto the deck. My life was turning upside down right in front of me and I didn't know how to stop it. I sank down into a chair and began to cry uncontrollably. A few moments later the door opened and Kurt walked outside with Frances. "Jade, I'm so sorry i'm hurting you. I promise i'm trying. If I get any worse I promise I'll go back to rehab. But in the meantime I really need to ask you a question." He said as he looked me straight in the eyes. "I love you so much Jade, without you being here for me I wouldn't be here. You're my best friend. So will you marry me?" His piercing blue eyes were making me melt into them and I was speechless with what to say. No matter how upset I was, my mood completely shifted into the moment. "Yes." I mumbled as I stood up and wrapped my arms around him. He slid a simple, but beautiful diamond ring onto my finger. "One condition, Cobain." I said, smiling a little. He looked at me with curiosity in his eyes. "Promise me that you will try your fucking hardest to beat this. Just please try." I begged him with tears in my eyes. "I promise." He whispered as he pulled me close to him.
The next day, I was sitting backstage with Kurt, Krist, and Shelli. Frances was crawling full speed across the floor and was getting into everything she could get her hands on. I picked her up off the floor near Shelli and all of a sudden I heard a gasp and she grabbed my hand. "Oh my god! Jade? Kurt? You guys have something to announce? " She asked with a huge grin across her face. I looked over at a smiling Kurt and couldn't help but smile too. "I was gonna tell you but i've just had lots on my mind. I'm pretty scatterbrained. But yes, we're getting married." I smiled as Shelli bear hugged me a little too tight. Kurt was laughing and shaking his head. "Love you too Shell, but I kinda can't breathe." I said with a strained voice. She let loose and I couldn't stop myself from laughing. Frances was giggling at Kurt again and the room was filled with so much postitive energy. It was so nice to be enjoying life in the moment. A few minutes passed and Dave walked in the door, followed by a women I had never seen before. "Guys, this is my new girlfriend, Nikki." He said as the blonde waved to everyone. "Nice to meet you, Im Shelli!" She cheerfully exclaimed. "Hi, i'm-" "Jade, I know. I read about you guys in the magazines." She said, cutting me off. "And you must be Frances! How cute! Just like your dad, huh?" Nikki said, smiling down at my daughter and then looked Kurt over. 'Okay, I already wanna punch this bitch.' I thought to myself as I tried to control my anger and took a deep breath. Kurt looked uncomfortable and embarrassed. "Kurt babe, do you wanna step outside and take a smoke break with me?" I gave him a 'please just follow my lead' look and he nodded and followed me outside after I asked Shelli to watch Frances. "Okay seriously, what the hell is Dave thinking?!" I spat out as I lit up a cigarette in anger. "I read about you guys in the magazines?! Really? He picked one of THOSE?! God, please tell me you'll talk some sense into him. And she was totally flirting with you by the way." I said as I took another drag. Kurt grinned. "Babe, she reads about us in the magazines, remember? Of course she's flirting with me." He laughed as he blew out smoke. I laughed and rolled my eyes. "Kurt, I fucking love you." I kissed him as I gently shoved him against the wall. Our fingers were tangled into each others hair and it had turned into a full on makeout session. I was lost in the moment until I heard a camera go off and saw a large flash. We pulled away, startled. "What the fuck?!" Kurt exclaimed as some paparazzi continued snapping pictures of us. "Is that an engagement ring I see?" One of them yelled. "Its none of your fucking business." Kurt spat out as he protectively put his arm around me and led us inside. Nikki and Shelli were laughing their asses off and seemed to be getting along pretty good. 'Great. This is gonna end up bad.' I thought to myself as I sighed and held Frances between me and Kurt. He was slightly smirking and seemed up to something. "Watch this." He whispered into my ear. "So how do you like the ring though? Does it fit good enough? We can get it sized." He asked as he held out my hand in perfect view for Nikki to see. "You two are getting married?! Wow. Congrats." She faked a smile, and looked very upset. Something was up with her, and I was determined to find out what it was.