The Bad Girl Goes To College

21:"Tayshawn"

40 missed calls.
66 unread text nessages.
10 new voicemails.
5 new snapchats.
18 kik messages.
All of it is from Zane. I can't even bring myself to pull down my notification bar when I hear my phone ping! instead I just turn it off. What is there left to say? Why must he drag out my heartbreak? I just want to watch The Notebook one more time while munching on some really good cookies that Casper made for me.
I promise myself that after today everything goes back to normal. That after The Notebook goes off this time I'm going to write my essay and go to the school to set up my second internship.
Fuck a boy I need my education. I need this degree so I can be successful. Three knocks at my door brings me back to reality and I yell at the human to come in, my eyes still on the TV screen.
"Won't you just stay with me?" Noah asks and I feel the tears stinging in my eyes. This part, no matter what's happening in my life, always gets me emotional.
"Its gonna be really hard and we're going to have to work at this every day but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you. Forever You and me everyday." I mouth along to the words stuffing a cookie in my mouth. A laugh causes my head to snap up and I glare when I realize that it's just Tayshawn.
He's been around the past couple days trying to keep my mind off of my heartbreak. He gets notes from my class and brings them so I can copy. I don't mind much he's great company and does good at keeping me occupied.
"You are such a girl." He comments tossing me a notebook filled with notes and a textbook with sticky notes poking out.
"Well gee, that explains the vagina." I mutter sarcastically rolling my eyes. I get up, pulling my shorts down as not to show the bottom of my ass cheeks, and grab my school shit.
"Explains the nice ass too." I watch him roll his bottom lip into his mouth and I just roll my eyes not letting him get to me. It's no secret Tayshawn likes me but I also know he's giving me time to heal from my previous relationship before making any real moves. His caring nature only draw me to him more but I know that if I get with him now I'll only be using him as a rebound.
"Why are all guys pigs?" I mutter, teasing him.
"Hmm, I thought I was a dog."
"A animal will always be a animal." I end the conversation and start to copy the notes.
"You know, Andy won't be home til around six." Tayshawn says after thirty minutes of me writing. I frown in confusion but continue to write.
"Yeah well I'm almost done." I feel his hand lightly brush my cheek as he tucks a loose strand of hair behind my ear. Shaking my head I try not to think about the tingles I feel.
Apparently wanting a reaction Tay places a finger under my chin and forces me to look into those too brown eyes. "You're beautiful, you know that?" I swallow in a very unattractive manner and think about my work.
"Tayshawn..."
"I don't want you to hurt because of that bastard. I don't want you to forget what it feels like to have one guy crazy about you." He's so close I can smell his minty breath that's blowing across my face. My eyes try to close but I force them open.
"You'll be nothing more than entertainment at this point Tayshawn. And I like you too much..." Tayshawn crashes his lips to mine shutting me up. He pulls me in his lap and I hear my books falling to the floor.
"I just want to try something." He whispers and pulls me back kissing me but this time its slow and teasing. He nips at my bottom lips and I grind my hips to him. "Don't move." He whispers on my lips and place his hands on my hips keeping me still. He kisses me slower and lighter driving me wild.
I don't know if I'm doing this to relieve the stress of Zane or because I really do like Tayshawn but it doesn't stop me. I try to kiss him harder but he stops me and takes his time learning my lips.
"Tayshawn." I nearly whimper when he pulls back with a smirk.
"Okay. When you're officially done with your heartbreak we'll go on a date and I'll make you question why even gave that díck two seconds of your time." He picks up my books and places my in front of them.
Then, with calm and ease, he gets up and goes to the kitchen area to warm up some leftover pizza. My hand places over my racing heart as I try to calm myself down.

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"Tayshawn kissed me." I blurt out to Andy. It's one in the morning and we've been watching American Horror Story for the past six hours. "Zane's calling right now." I hold the phone in my hand. Panic almost takes over me, almost.
"Don't answer it." My finger hovers over the green button and I find myself pressing it. Why? I have no clue.
"Nadia." My eyes close as I take in his voice. Andy comes to my bed and cuddles up to me. "Please say something." She grabs the phone and put it on speaker. "I hear you breathing so I'm going to say what I have to say. What I did was a fucked up thing." I still haven't opened my eyes but the image I have of him is so clear.
His room a mess. "I never intended to actually fuck her." His black out curtains drawn shut. "I just wanted to fool around. I'll be honest and say that everything I did was only to hurt you." Him sitting on the edge of his bed. "That's why no condom was used. It wasn't supposed to happen. But does that even mean anything?" No. Zane's clutching the phone. "I just..." His mouth opens and close it because he can't find anything to say. Words can't fix this one and all Zane ever had was his stupid words and his stupid smile. "I'm so sorry. I hate myself right now. I think I'll always hate myself because the last time I saw you...you were so done with me." He squeezes his eyes shut because he's tired of crying. Crying over something he did, it was his choice. "And though you were angry I'd never seen you hurt so much. I watched you try your hardest not to cry and I couldn't do anything because I caused that pain." He's crying anyway. Hating himself pulling on his brown hair that he's been neglecting. "I'm sorry." Running a hand down his face in frustration. "I..."
"Don't. Please don't tell me you love me Zane." Words finally leave my mouth and the tears are streaming once again. "When you asked me to marry you did you know she was pregnant?" I actually pray to get the answer I want.
"Yes."
"Goodbye Zane." I hang up the phone and fall apart in Andy's arms. "I thought it was over Andy. I thought....I was so close to being done crying." Andy doesn't say anything she just holds me and strokes my head. "I was going to go down to the school tomorrow and get my second internship. I was going to get my shit together Andy. Now I'm back at square one. Back crying over him."
"And tomorrow I'm hauling your ass down to that school and we're getting that internship. Then we'll study our asses up because exams are coming up. I'm going to help you. Because I don't want you to cry over him again. You are so much better than this shit."
"I love you Andy." I wipe my eyes and hug her tightly.
"I love you too Nadia. Now what was this about Tayshawn kissing you? Any ass squeezing? Licked his abs? I need details bitch!" I laugh and proceed to tell her about earlier today, pushing Zane to the back of my mind.