His Lost Queen [EDITING]

CHAPTER 38: ENLIGTHENED

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CHAPTER 38: ENLIGTHENED

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BRIN's POV

"I'll send you the annulment papers as soon as it is processed. For all I know, you're itching to sign those papers to cut the tie between us."

"I'll send you the annulment papers as soon as it is processed. For all I know, you're itching to sign those papers to cut the tie between us."

"I'll send you the annulment papers as soon as it is processed. For all I know, you're itching to sign those papers to cut the tie between us."

"I'll send you the annulment papers as soon as it is processed. For all I know, you're itching to sign those papers to cut the tie between us."

"I'll send you the annulment papers as soon as it is processed. For all I know, you're itching to sign those papers to cut the tie between us."

"I'll send you the annulment papers as soon as it is processed. For all I know, you're itching to sign those papers to cut the tie between us."

"NOOOOO!!!!!!!" I shouted as her words continuously linger inside my head.

I willed myself to sit down and be calm as I was trying myself not to go berserk. Damn it. I need to do something.

But shit be damned. There's nothing I can think right at this moment. My brain refuse to function. All I want to do is grab everything damn thing I see and throw it somewhere until it's broken into pieces just like what happened to my heart.

"Shit" I uttered again as I cried. I cannot contain this feeling anymore. The pain is killing me. The guilt is hunting me. I shouldn't left her that day. I should've listened to her.

If only I did not let my pride overcome me. Maybe, maybe she's still with me. Maybe my son won't forget me.

All I can say is maybe.

I'm such a good-for-nothing jerk. She's talking about annulment now and it pained me that she already gave up. She doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. That I just messed everything up. I'm all fuck up and damn it hurts. If I could only turn back time...

My tears began welling up again. I had stop brushing it out of my face coz no matter what I do they just keep on rolling down my face because of the pain I am feeling right now.

I stood up and grab a bottle of vodka on the shelf of my room and drank it straight from the bottle. I can do nothing. So I will just drown myself to alcohol hoping it would help ease the pain I was feeling.

But damn. It did not help. I just keep on remembering the memories of how asshole I was towards them. And remembering those memories pained me more which cause me to cry even more.

I was sobbing feeling the pain and guilt eating me up. But I don't care anymore. all I care is to let this feeling of loneliness in me. I just want to pour my heart out. Kahit ngayon lang. I guarded my feeling towards her, towards them and look where it gotten me.

Napatawa ako sa sarili ko. I am crying but at the same time I am laughing. Crying because of how things turned back to me and laughing dahil sa kamiserablihan ng buhay ko na ako rin naman ang may gawa.