With the Lights Off...

(5): Never Let Me Go

*So, due to the flattering demand of a certain @ninaianforever, I would like to update this story as soon as possible, for her birthday! :)) Hope you guys like it! :)) Love to her and love to all of youuu! :D C xx*

Nina's POV

I can't believe how fast I ran out of that place.

Honestly, in my heels? I didn't know I could run that fast.

Why?

I guess... it just started to freak me out. Everything was coming back in one big dump. Just because of one tiny card, I broke off everything with the guy I loved.

I ran to my car and drove it until I stopped in the middle of nowhere. I jumped out and ran again, just kept running and running and running.

"I just feel like everything's better when you're married, you know?"

"Maybe when I get married, I'll be a better person."

"Marriage seems to become Paul and Torrey, don't you think?"

"I just see all these happy married couples and keep wondering when I'd be that happy..."

His voice just kept ringing in my ear, over and over. I looked from side to side thinking that he was next to me, whispering in my ear.

God, how I wish.

I fell over, but all I could do was sit and cover my ears. Maybe, if I did that, I would stop hearing Ian's voice all the time, everywhere I go. He was always there, I could hear him over and over again, but at some point in time, I liked hearing his voice.

"I love you, Nina," was all I wanted to hear. I wanted to record it and play it over and over and over again. 

Now, I might never get the chance to hear that again.

Maybe from someone else, but never Ian. Probably, never again. 

I was going to be stuck with his voice inside my head and his face in my dreams, but never with his arms wrapped around me or his hands holding mine.

I kept my fingers on the side of the tiny card. He told me he was ready to settle down, he told me it was probably time for him to. I shoved it in my pocket and buried my head in my hands.

But then, I completely realized that it wasn't right for me.

Not him, because I swear to God, he was nothing but right. 

I meant, the whole 'settling down' thing and 'getting married' thing. I'm not saying it wasn't for me, I'm not saying I didn't want any of it. 

I'm saying, I was just not ready for it yet. I wasn't, but Ian certainly was.

I sighed and looked up.

Tomorrow was the first day of taping for Lights and if he didn't back out, I'm sure as hell, Ian's going to be there. 

And we had to act head over heels in love.

I got up and grunted loudly. Why the hell was I acting totally sappy and broken?

I was never this girl. I would never sit and sulk over some guy I used to date. Besides, was Ian acting the same way? Of course he wasn't.

He didn't care anymore.

I just hope I could get through that taping without having to bawl my eyes out. I just don't know how long I can stay in the same room as Ian, because I wish we weren't like this. I wish we were back to where we were.

I ran to my car and stepped inside. I revved up the engine and drove home, just to see more paparazzi outside the penthouse. 

I stopped on the curb and saw Zach, Steven, and Michael prying off the paparazzi. They were launching themselves, blocking the door. I looked up and saw Kat and Candice, peering through the window, wearing Aviators.