With the Lights Off...

(15): Almost is Never Enough

*hey everyone. I just wanted to thank you guys for all the love :"> it means a lot! <333 Lights tho, Harry and Lexi are now 26 years old. Meaning, Harry left when they were 16. Larissa was 36 in this flashback and Harden was 26. All good? Okay, okay :)) BTW, could you guys keep an eye out for my new book, My Ex's Ex's Ex and my next fanfic about FinnChel / MonChele? :))) thank guys, it would mean a lot! =))) Lovelove xx C *

Nina's POV

Judging by this latest addition to our show, I'm very certain that Clive will never be a good private investigator or FBI Agent.

It was just a hunch.

Standing on opposite sides of Clive were Maggie Grace and Ben Hollingsworth.

Two people who were far from neutral.

As far as I knew, Ian's relationship with Maggie didn't end officially. And my relationship with Ben didn't either.

I saw Maggie smile stiffly and Ben swallow hard. The awkward silence seemed to be getting to Clive, since he clapped his hands together and said, "How wonderful is this?"

We all grinned at him and watched as he obliviously sat down on his Director's Chair. "Okay, so for this scene, I'm only going to need Nina and Ben. Ian and Maggie, you guys can sit back down. You'll be filming in a few."

Ian looked at me uncomfortably and I shrugged. He walked away and sat next to Maggie on the leather couch beside the snack table.

"Nina," Ben said, walking towards me. I smiled gently and gave him a hug. "How long has it been?"

"Way too long," I sighed, shrugging my shoulders.

"Seeing your expression, I'm betting this is very awkward for you," he muttered.

I nodded. "Three exes in one series? Not really something I was expecting."
Nina, did you just say THREE exes? Don't you mean two exes and one... almost-not-ex-anymore?

"I didn't notice," Ben said, looking around. His eyes stopped once he understood that Ian was right there, as if he didn't notice him when they walked in. "Please tell me the other one isn't a girl."

I laughed and pointed towards the door. "The 'other one' will be bursting through that door in..." I sighed. "3... 2... 1..."

"I'm so sorry, I'm late," Evan sighed, bursting through the door. Everyone silenced him as he made his way to the makeup section next to Ashley. Ash whispered something in his ear, causing him to look around. His eyes stopped once he saw Maggie. He looked up again and stopped once he saw Ben next to me.

His eyes widened and he waved at me. I waved back and he mouthed "Are you okay?"

I nodded and shrugged my shoulders. Clive snapped his fingers to catch my attention and I whipped my head to look at him.

"Dearies, you remember this scene, yes?" Clive asked, rubbing his chin. "We have to show that Lexi is visiting a psychologist in secret, of course without Harry knowing. That being Harden Clayfield. Ben, you have to come on to Nina and Nina, you have to respond."

We both nodded.

"Okay," he said.

"Lights. Scene 11, Take 1."

Clive sat back down and yelled, "Action!"

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"Spruce Street please, Octagon Hospital," I practically yelled to the driver, shutting the door harshly. He didn't seem to notice as he watched me through his mirror.

"You got it, lady," he said, picking up the pace of the car. 

I didn't know why this was happening. 

Everything just happened so fast. Too fast.

I was having my panic attacks again. I didn't even know where I was, until I woke up at home with no one by my side. I blacked out and I didn't even realize. 

The last thing I remember was being with Harry.

The cab stopped in front of the hospital and I shoved a tenner at the cab. I stepped out of the cab and rushed upstairs.