Gravitational Pull (Completed)

Chapter 19

"Polaris wakey-wakey love, breakfast is ready."

Gising na silang tatlo pag mulat ko. Pinaghanda nila ako ng break fast. Scranled eggs at sausages syempre may kanin.  Para kaming one big happy family.

Only that my heart is owned by someone greater than everything. Kaya nga sabi ko di ba hindi na ako pwedeng mag papa apekto sa kanya. I can no longer entertain the erotic feelings that we somehow felt between each other. When I graduate, I will solely dedicate my life to the monastic life of Carmelite congregation. And all my actions will be to glorify the god that I believe in.  The only love I should share with Romano would be agape kind of love.
I smiled bitterly, somehow this will be my ultimate test.

"Mommy Jen, natulong kaming gumawa ng breakfast." I know he kinda mess up with his tagalog but Chit is so deadly adorable.

"Wow! you made it for me?"
Na surpre-surpesahan ako para matuwa naman sila.

"Yes, and we iron your clothes too."

"Thank you." I gave them my sweetest smile and Oh god! I am only human and I can't help hoping that this will be forever!

He offered na bantayan ang mga bata by bringing them to work habang nasa eskwela ako at sa trabaho.

Pag uwi sa hapon may mga pinamiling mga essentials na pambata like clothes,supply of soap, vitamins, gatas at learning kit. In fairness pwede na siyang maging tatay. Too bad he can no longer become a father to my children. We missed the opportunity, it's not too late for him though.

"O kids anung sasabihin niyo kay Romano?" Nagtinginginan sila at nag chorus.

"Thank you Daddy Roms!"

Daddy Roms? really! O eh di siya na. These kids however knows how to charm people. And no mortal can resist it. My oxytocin secretes abnormally with these kids. It's hard not to fall inlove with them.

"You're welcome. Wala ba kayong nakalimutang sabihin kay Mommy Jenn?"

Hoooy at naki Mommy? O my gosh, I feel like we're really a young family and that kind of dilemma. Pero sabi nila kung kelan malapit ka sa diyos saka ka pa inuulan ng tukso. The reason I am not telling him about this kasi, kilala ko siya and he will just exert more effort to win me back.

"Mom, p_pwede daw ba tayong pumunta ng beach sa dimanche?"  tanong ni Monty and still looking at Romano as if they practiced it several times and he didn't got over practicing.

"Beach!!beach beach mommy Jenna S'il vous plaît!!"

Nag tatalon na si Chit at parang pumayag na talaga ako na super excited. Paano ba yan? paanu ko sasabihin sa kanila na nahuhulog na nanaman ako kay Romano Dela Llana at hindi dapat nangyayari ito.

"Sa sunday?" yun lang ang nabanggit ko and I am still struggling big time.

Hay nakels! hindi ko talaga mapigilang maging happy at this state of being. Nostalgic nga eh kasi, these are the kind of daydream about him when I'm fifteen. Nang mga panahon na bored ako sa Pythagorean theorem.

"Sege na Jenn, I promise everyone will enjoy." His grin is intoxicating, na para bang alam na alam niya na hindi ako makapag hindi.

After graduation, I will go back home, spend some time with my parents and after that I will accept the duties dedicate my life to serve the lord. I will be sent to Cambodia to do missionary works and no Idea if I still able to go back in this country. Buo na dapat ang loob ko and these kinds of temptation has already been explained to me several times.

"Sege pero make sure na makaka balik tayo ng hapon." Lord naiintindihan no naman siguro di ba? Please po gabayan mo po ako.

"Yehey!" Nag chorus pa silang tatlo nadapa pa nga si Chit sa sobrang talon. Para talaga silang mag ama. And nakaka hawa ang celebration nila.

Romano stayed much longer at nag diner kasama namin. At lalo pang natunaw ang puso ko nang kinakain na niya ang niluto kong kare-kare. I can trully testify na mapaglaro talaga ang tadhana.

Siya ulit ang nag hugas ng pinggan and while the kids were playing Captain America.

And surprise! No flashbacks..