Gravitational Pull (Completed)

Book II Chapter 7

Hindi ko na siya pinaka walan pa. I tailed into her like I'm literally part pf her body.

She said I can only stay at the recieving room as her visitor.

She is in the Orphanage taking care of children. Sister Theresa of Calcutta Orphanage.

Nag madre? What the heck! Sa dinami dami pa ng ikinaribal ko si lord pa pala..Naku naman!

Hindi siya tumitingin sa mata ko habang nag uusap kami. At may kinab-busy-han siya.

"So gaano ka na katagal sa ampunan na ito, sweetheart?"

Hinahanap ko pa din ang mata niya, para naman siyang may ADHD na ewan, mukhang balisa.

"Wala pang isang taon. I have been assigned sa Cambodia and Myanmar noong naka raan."

Hindi ko muna siya pipilitin sa ngayon. But I promise to get her out of this place, god forbid me or forsaken me, I am ready.

Flashback in Paris

"Romano, you have to go home and take a rest. Anu gusto mo bang magkasakit?"

Alam ko na nag wo-worry siya, it sick to think I wanted her to care even if I need to get sick.

"Would it make you happy if I rest?"

I caught her staring both brows raised as if she's on great dilemma when I did a half grin smile.

"Syempre, alangan naman mag paka saya ako na maysakit ka."

Jenna would still care even if you haven't seen each other for a while. You will just know.

"So kailan ka uuwi sa atin?"

I kept asking questions para masulit ko ang mga oras, hanggang eight o'clock lang daw ang bisita.

"Hindi ko alam Roms kung makaka uwi pa ako sa atin, nasabi ko na sa iyo yan di ba?"

Ako naman ang nalungkot at hindi maka tingin sa mata niya.

Katahimikan. Hinawakan ko nalang ang kamay niya and stared at it like. Oh god cheesy as it may but I heard I'm gonna lose you by Meghan Trainor. And the fuck! I even mumble it under my breath right now.

Tapos nung itinaas ko yung mata ko. Her tears rolled down abundantly. Pinahiran ko.

"Bakit ka nalulungkot sweetheart?"

Umiiling siya, I kissed her hands.

"Tahan na, everything's gonna be alright."

I promised her and kissed her forehead. Nakita ko na dumadaan daan ang kasamahan niya at tinitingnan kami.

"I'll be back tomorrow okay?"

Umiling siya.

"Don't come back please. You're making this difficult for both of us."

Anu ang ibig nitong sabihin?

"Jenna kahit ang diyos pa ang karibal ko. That doesn't make me stop loving you. I love you to the grave sweetheart. Tandaan mo yan."

Umiiling siya as if she can't accept the truth she's hearing.

"Bakit ngayon mo lang sinasabi yan? I longed for the day you will tell me that word Romano. And it's too late."

Ako naman ang umiling.

"How's it too late? hindi totoo yan, if you still love me, it's never too late, god will understand."

Banayad kong hawakan ang baba niya.

"Tama ka. God will understand, but you don't. Me and god's relationship is never sexual Roms. The attraction we have is different from the attraction we have."

Spoken like a true nun, she spiritually mature up to the nth level at mukhang nahihirapan ako. Hindi ko mapigilang mag panick.

"Believe me Jen, I understand. I do, you may think of me as selfish and uncarring."

I temporarily move my head closer to her head, bugso ng damdamin.

"Pero hindi ito ang para sa iyo. You can't be inlove with me and serve him."

Saka tumayo na para umalis at nangakong babalik kinabukasan.

Parang mas  bumigat pa lalo ang pakiramdam ko nang umalis ako sa orphanage.

In my hotel room, hindi ako mapakali. How can I snatch her away from god. She seems committed. How can I ever convinced her to take me back in jer heart.

I hit the hotel wall sa sobrang inis.