Your Song

Chapter 7

KAYLE

I took the notebook and sat on the edge of my bed.

My heart beats fast as I stare at it.

He gave me this before he went to the convention, telling that whenever I miss him, I can just read his works.

I took a deep breath before opening the notebook.

Then I flipped the first page.

"It's in silence where I find peace. In silence where nothing screams louder than the books I have in hand. Nothing cuts deeper than the words in every line written on the pages. And on each chapter, it's the silence that helps me indulge myself into poetry when I'm lost in reality."

I smiled. I remember this is the first quote he wrote after finding out that book is life. This was written in our freshman days when he had always wanted to distance himself from other people--he says they're unbearable.

I laughed. I can't imagine him being too friendly and talkative way back.

Then I flipped another page.

Oh I remember this one!

"Whoever who shall try to hurt my Queen shall taste my wrath. In this world no mercy, no soul. I'll drag them all to Hell-that's a never-ending sting they will get."

This was when some random guys tried to bully me in school at our first semester. We didn't fight them back because they were just too big for us!

Idagdag mo pa 'yung fact na mas marami sila sa amin, dalawa lang kaya kami ni Cal nun.

Naisip ko 'yung sinabi sa akin ni Cal kanina. Pakiramdam niya may malaking parte talaga sa pagkatao niya ang panitikan. Well, ganun pa man, hindi ko pa rin iniisip na sabihin na sa kaniya ang tungkol sa bagay na 'yun.

Nagbasa pa ako ng ibang naisulat niya nang dumako ang tingin ko sa mga notebooks ko na nasa baba rin ng closet kung saan ko nahanap 'tong notebook.

Tumayo ako at pinuntahan ito. Kinuha ko ang dalawang notebooks ko na nandoon, pareho 'yung pagkakagawa nito sa notebook ni Cal. Hindi ordinaryo 'tong mga notebooks namin, pinagawa talaga 'to ng mga nanay namin sa isang shop eh.

'Yung isa, ay kung saan ko sinusulat ang mga kanta ng paborito kong boy bands. Kulay sky blue ito na may naka-engrave na gitara sa taas. 'Yung isa naman, well, kulay gray at may naka-engraved notes na nagfo-form ng heart. Ito 'yung notebook na pinagsusulatan ko ng mga kantang ako ang nag-compose.

Masyado na pala akong naging busy these past few weeks kaya wala na akong oras mag-compose. Bumuntong-hininga ako. Dati kasi, laging nandiyan si Cal tuwing gumagawa ako ng kanta.

I sighed and put the three notes on top of the table beside my bed.

Susubukan kong gumawa ulit ng kanta bukas pagkauwi galing sa Mayday Serenade.

Pumikit na ako at natulog.

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Kinabukasan, as usual, maaga na naman aakong nagising para pumasok.

Pagdating ko sa school, agad kong nahanap si Cielo.

"Sis kamusta naman 'yung lakad niyo ni Cal kahapon?" excited niyang tanong.

"Okay lang," sabi ko.

"Anong "okay lang"? Ano ka ba naman!" naiinis niyang sabi.

"Oh bakit?" tanong ko.

"Ang tipid ah! Ano nga? Kamusta naman? Okay lang ba? Nakakaalala na ba siya?"

Inirapan ko siya. "Baliw ka ba? Hindi naman ganun kadali 'yun noh."