reasons you should totally not love me

3:23 12/02/16 relapse

mood: outside with the cuties by Frankie Cosmos

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i had a panic attack today in the middle of a class

it's the first one since july but i think I'm doing better tbh

we also had our band concert last night (the flutes suCKEd but everyone said the electric guitar kid and I did the best), I awkwardly sat with my crush afterwards and we talked about stuff it was okay, but I think she has a crush on this possibly straight girl and everyone ships them and it makes me sad
:'^)

idk

i was doing well the past few months, but my depression has slowly been creeping back and I've been having the urge to resort back to self harm or bulimia but nah im still recovering from anorexia and it relapsed a bit so
:'''^)))
go me

my mood is just really melancholy and depressed

idk how to describe it but imagine taking a really deep breath but sobbing on the exhale part

i just want to talk to someone or be distracted or have someone to really really love me but hhhhhhhh im just really tired

I'm sure I'll be alright soon, I'll try to write if I get worse

Also please anyone pm me if you're not feeling well either and we can just kinda scream together