The Beginning to The End (Some Phan)

⚠️Part 5⚠️

⚠️suicide attempt right in the beginning⚠️

-Dan-

I sat in the bathroom with all the pills I could find in the house while PJ was sleeping and I left him a note in the kichten with him banging on the locked door.
"Dan you don't to do this, it's not worth it" I didn't care, I just wanted be with Phil. I swallowed the first 20 pills or so and I started feeling dizzy and everything went black, it's done I did it I can be with Phil now.
"Hey Dan" I saw Phil standing in a brightly lighted room.
"Phil I made it" I ran and hugged him.
"I'm sorry Dan, but it's not you time" He pushed me and I started falling and everything went black again.

I started hearing voices and noises around me. PJ must have gotten to me first.
"Doctor, is he okay?" I heard him say. I opened my eyes and I was in a hospital.
"PJ, I wanted to die, why did you have to do this" I said quietly.
"Listen Dan, you're in clear need for help, just call me okay?" I just ingored the doctor and turned away, I noticed a tube in my stomach.
"How long have I been out" I quietly asked.
"5 days" PJ said siting next to me.
"The funeral?" I said my voice cracking.
"You missed it"

As he said I burst out crying.
"Why didn't you just let me die! Go away, leave me alone, I don't want to talk to anyone!" I screamed.
"Dan calm down" PJ reached for a hug, but I pushed him away.
"Calm down I lost the love of life and I should have realised sooner!"
"Dan I called your mum, okay?"
"I don't wanna speak to her" I lay on the hospital bed and closed my eyes, I wanted to sleep everything was perfect when I sleep, Phil's there, I'm happy and all I wanted to do was sleep forever is there a big problem.
"Daniel, honey" I heard my mum's voice. Her hand on my shoulder.
"I love you" I quickly hugged her. I couldn't be angry at her.
"Why did you do it"
"I love him, not just as a friend" I cried into her shoulder as she hugged me tight.
"Would you like to stay with me for a while" I nodded into her shoulder.