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[Chapter Ten] Vulnerable

Chapter Ten- Vulnerable
Bailey's Pov

I sat in my room just thinking about everything. I came in here determined to be miserable, which I was, but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to be totally miserable.

Well I knew the reason, I just didn't understand it.

I don't understand why he cared to stay with me and look after me. I don't understand why he insisted on staying the night with me, and I don't know why he's even talking to me. I haven't decided if I liked this or not through, I couldn't bring myself to go one way or the other.

This whole thing was simply confusing and I wasn't sure how to bring things up with him without making it awkward, what if he didn't know either and it was just an awkward staring match while we tried to come up with something to say.

What if he freaked out at the idea of being friends and after I was done with detoxing he wanted nothing to do with me and I made things awkward.

Once the water got cold and I started I started shivering I stood up slowly and grabbed a towel to wrap around my body and one for my hair. I winced with each step I took and sat down on the toilet seat to get some kind of break, I couldn't wait for this to go away either.

This was total rock bottom right now, I though as I looked to the side and into the mirror. I looked like hell. My face was pale, I was too skinny and the dark circles under my eyes looked like I got punched. I looked tired and just bad. on top of that I felt like shit, I still wanted to throw up I was still shaking, I was still having bad dreams, but at least it wasn't like the hallucinations I was having before.

I sat on the seat and groaned that I would have to walk all the way into my room and get clothes.

"Bailey" that voice, and I groaned again. how many times did the man have to see me like this. I felt weak and pathetic for having to ask for his help, I wished Lacey was here, her I was okay with seeing me like this, she was a girl, I just felt uncomfortable and awkward in front of him. I've never been naked in front of a guy before.

"In here." I said reluctantly and he opened the door slowly.

"Do you need help?" he asked and I huffed in frustration.

"It hurts to walk." I said and he came in and looked down at me, damn this guy was tall. Another thing I didn't like about this, I felt so freaking tiny compared to him because I was and that made me feel more vulnerable.

He came in and bent down and easily picked me up. I clung to my towel as he carried me into my room and set me down on the bed. He hovered over me after he set me down and I held my breath. He stared at me for a bit before he cleared his throat and straightened, allowing me to release the breath I had been holding.

"What do you need?" he asked

"I can get it." I said and I looked away feeling awkward again.

"Bailey, I can get it."

"I ned a bra and underwear, and I can get it." I said and tried to get up. He put a hand on my shoulder and pushed me back on the bed while he rolled his eyes before heading over to my closet and opening the top drawer.

He grabbed the garments out and tossed them back over to me and turned his back to me to give me some privacy, which I was thankful for.

I slid them on and laid back down on my bed.

"I need a shirt." I said and he went over to my dresser again

"Which kind?" he asked

"A big t-shirt." I just wanted to put it on and curl up in bed and sleep some more. I was so tired, but I never slept well, granted I've been sleeping better since Julian has been here.