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[Chapter Fifty] Adjusting To Normal

Chapter Fifty – Adjusting To Normal

Julian's Pov

I missed her, it's been six days since I left and I spent the first couple miserable before my manager came and dropped off two scripts for the auditions I was going to have next week, I've tried to learn them but right now my heart just isn't in it, maybe after I saw her tomorrow.

It's been so hard to refrain from calling my dealer and getting more cocaine. I even picked up the phone once and dialed the number but as I looked at myself and say her necklace I couldn't bring myself to click the little green button to call.

The other part was what I said to her when she almost relapsed, Lacey was there to help us both and it would be like stabbing her in the back if we went back to it, it would be like saying her last days spent with us, talking to us and helping us, were nothing. It would be like saying the last few months of her life were worthless and that isn't true.

If I had to guilt myself into saying clean then I would.

I was hoping that seeing her tomorrow would help me like she did when I was afraid to leave, and being out here was just as hard as I thought it would be, my mother was released from jail because it was ruled self-defense and I would be seeing her soon.

My brother was still a jackass, and I had no one else really

I was excited to see her the next day though, one week was gone and I only had to bare three more and I hoped she was doing a lot better than I was. I knew I looked terrible because I couldn't sleep but as she walked into the room I could see that she looked rested and happy.

"Oh Bailey." I wrapped my arms around her and she jumped on me.

"I missed you." she mumbled as she clung to me and I sat on the couch with her in my lap and gave her a long kiss.

"I missed you too pretty girl, how are you doing?" I asked and she took a deep breath and she had a small smile on her lips

"I'm actually doing pretty good, a lot better than I thought I would do." she told me and I was relieved

"I was worried that you weren't doing well but I guess I should have learned, you're too strong to let it get you down for too long." I kissed her forehead

"It's only three more weeks and then I get you for the rest of my life, if that's what you still want." she added shyly at the end and she turned bright red which made me laugh

"I do but I have to admit I'm not doing as well as you are." I told her and she traced the dark circles under my eyes and sighed

"You need to sleep. Don't make me worry more about you than I already do." she said sternly

"I have auditions next week, they thought it would be good for me to jump back into work but I'm scared to, it was the life I had when I was on drugs and what if it makes me want to go back?" I asked her and she kissed me

"Then you'll call me, I know they wanted no contact the first week but you can call a couple times a week now, but we can't talk for hours sadly." She sighed dramatically and it was good to see her in a good mood, it put me in a good mood.

"Has Drew called?" I asked and her eyes lit up

"Yes, he calls every day to see how I'm doing and he's talking to his manager about being transferred here to California and he wants to fly me out there in a couple months, you too if you're willing to come and I can meet Micah and Kenna." She told me excited; it was like she was never an addict right now, like everything was right in the world