Forever Swan

Chapter 19 ~ Jen.

I'm still sorry haha xx

Jen's P.O.V.

It couldn't be. Colin. Dead.

No.

I was rocking back and forth in the chair, curled up in a ball.

Just repeating those two words.

"Please, no."

The tears were streaming down my face.

No.

"Jen? Jen?" It was Helens voice.

I looked up and was instantly confused.

Why was I back in Colin's hospital room?

Colin.

No.

I looked around the room slowly.

To the monitor, showing a steady heartbeat. To the body, lying still except the movement of breathing.

To him.

Him.

Although he was unconscious, he was very much alive.

He was alive.

Colin was alive.

Colin wasn't dead.

I jumped out of my chair and wrapped my arms around Helen, tears cascading down my face once more.

But there weren't tears of sadness, of grief.

They were tears of happiness.

Relief.

Joy.

Love.

"Are you okay?" Helen asked.

"He's alive!" I whispered grinning.

It had all been a dream.

Colin's death.

Just a nightmare.

I put my hands on my stomach and whispered to myself and the baby.

"He's alive!"

I sat back down in the chair and grasped his hand once more.

"Colin. I don't know if you can hear me now, but I just had the worst nightmare where you died. And I don't know what I would do if I lost you for real. Please wake up. For our child. You have to make it. You promised, remember?" Tears were flowing down my face again. "You said Forever, Swan. Please. I love you."

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Colin's P.O.V.

I was half there.

Half dead.

The pain.

So much pain.

Death was there.

I could feel it waiting.

Waiting for me to give in.

But it was her who saved me.

The love of my life.

Jennifer.

"I love you." Those words.

Barely audible above the noice of death.