These Words Scream

My apology

This is to the girl that I went out of my way to get noticed by
The one who I trusted, the one who told me lies
The one who made me feel like I was the only one
The one that made me feel like I was impossible to love
The one who called me over when she just wanted something
The one that made it clear I'm not the girl she wanted me to be
I tried and I failed so this is my apology

This is to the one who gave me life the one that gave birth
The one who complains and looks at me like I'm the worst thing on earth
The one who emotionally beats me down
The one whose suppose to lift me up from the ground
The one whose supposed to bring my face nothing but smiles and laughs
The one who brings everything. That is the opposite of that
The one who constantly compares me to others
The one who makes it so difficult to love her
The one who says I'm not the daughter she expected me to be
I understand that and this is my apology

This is to the sick bastard that crept into my room
The one who gave me those thoughts of ending it so soon
The one who lied and said I was crazy in the head
The one who had denied creeping into my bed
The one who left me scarred for life
The one who is responsible for my silent cries at night
The one who says I've changed his life
Cause I've caused problems between him and his wife
The one who said I should have kept quiet, I should have just left things be
He's right, nothing positive came from it, so this is my apology

This is to my friends that say I do nothing but bitch and complain
The ones who left because they say I've changed
The ones who didn't stick around in my time of need
The ones who gave me more of a reason to grieve
I understand I'm not the girl I used to be
And for that this is my apology

This is to the girl with low self esteem
The girl who cried terribly
The one with the forced fake smile
The one who hasn't been happy for a while
The one who's afraid to trust
The one who's afraid to let anyone in
The one whose past up many chances at love
Because she finds people hard to trust
That one that was robbed of her purity and self esteem
This is to the girl I'm embarrassed to be
This is my apology, to me.