These Words Scream

Empty

Her thoughts bob under the surface,
Her lost dreams circling around her in clouds
Every fake smile, fake laugh
Only feeds the emptiness inside
She's lost the ability to cry
Surrendered it to the numbness
So she no longer has to feel

The thick, black cloud overcomes her
Smothering her till she suffocates
She gasps, while inside her
Everything is torn apart
Her heart ripped to shreds
And repeatedly stabbed
With a rusty dagger

Her soul screams as the demons rip into it
Those horrible monsters
No. They're her demons
Her horrible monsters
She's her own monster
The guilt's eating her alive
As she slowly kills herself...

From the inside out,
She seems fine on the outside
The same laughing, smiling girl she's always been
The scars she keeps hidden are the only sign
A silent scream
But no one notices
Or do they just not care?

She's so alone
She's always been alone
Ever since the shadows are her essence
Sacrifices herself to the cold tendrils of sin
False promises tempting her away from the Light
And into the barren Darkness
She's always so LOST...

Inside her own body...
It seems her hands have a mind of their own
As they slice her arms,
Her ankles,
Her thighs,
With the blade she's always kept as a close companion
The same rusty razor

She watches the blood as it leaks out
Down her arms and thighs
Her release from the never ending cold
But it's not enough
It's never enough
Not when she carries the weight
Of the world on her shoulders

But she knows what is enough
She starred at the bottle of pills
Knowing this is her escape
From the Darkness that surrounds her
I'd be quick
Painless
She's already slowly killing herself

Destroying her soul
No one can help
They've tried before
And they helped...
For a while
But then she was back to faking her joy
With the mask that became her best friend

She began starving herself
She could never look good enough
She found joy in each ache of hunger
It meant it was working
She was going to be skinny
But it was never enough
How could it ever be

When she couldn't resist food, she'd stuff herself
Then made a point of throwing up
She pushed everyone away
Stuck in her solitude
Her shadow her best friend
But soon the shadow was her
A forgotten ghost...

Just a piece of who she was
Who she used to be
Left behind as she slowly killed herself
She's only a shadow
A wisp in the wind
Never finding happiness
She lost herself

With no hope of being found...