The blade is cold
But not oldI didn't go deep
I didn't even weepJust one cut is all I need
And my mind goes calm, while my cut bleedsIt was harmless but helped so much
I stopped being mad and suchNo more angry thoughts went through my mind
Just fascination, everything else left behindIs it the start or the end?
All I know is I don't want to disappoint my friendIs it too late for me?
I thought I was getting better but I only pretended to beThe cut now stains my arm
Nothing big or deep, nothing to cause much harmA cat scratch is what ill say
But I doubt people will see any dayThey won't see the real me and who I am
They won't see my body is disconnected from my brain stemI don't want attention, I don't deserve it
I play along with the world, but my candle is not litI'm a lost soul on this land
My minds drifting, my body sinking in sandI've given up on people
It's now me alone in my own steepleI get mad so quick
Like a switch on the wall, tense with every clickMaybe I'm only meant to be there for others
Don't the daughters learn from the mothers?Only my mother does not know me
She only sees what she wants to seeThere's no way her sweet child
Cut her arm to keep her mind from going wildDo they realize their actions affect me so?
That sometimes they cause me to hit my low?No they don't, all they see is him
They can't even see the pattern; my cups reached the brimHe angers then he lies
To get people to take him back, I bet he even deniesThe wrongs that he's done
All because he thinks life is funBut when will he see
That he's just another wanna beIt's possible I just don't belong
There are parts of me I've discovered are goneLike my patience to wait
I'm done waiting there's nothing to debateOnce I'm of age you'll barely see me
Once I get a car I'll never be here to beI witness to the yells or shouts
A witness to the pattern of oh okay and get outA witness to tears and uproars
A witness to hurtful words and slamming doorsA witness to a father who's confused
Because my mother is either okay or blowing a fuseI'll stop being the victim of being on the edge
Because I'll stop being around, I won't be on the ledgeI won't be the victim of feeling guilty anymore
I won't be the victim or witness anytime I walk out that doorAm I lost? That's easy to say
Is there hope? We'll see with each coming dayMy name does not matter all that matter is the story my dear friend
The one with a strong beginning, unclear middle, but no endIt's a screwed up world even a blind man could see
That to fake happiness you have to be who others expect you to be
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