These Words Scream

Straight through me

When I scream you don't hear
When I hold my breath till my face turns blue you don't care
When I reach you don't see
You look straight through me
You hit me
Beat me
Curse me
Scream at me
I wear a mask
I fake a smile
But you look straight through me
Why am I dead to you?
I understand why I'm dead to myself
I can't even look myself in the eye
You know why?