These Words Scream

So I can know

I feel like I'm falling, dying inside
Wish I could tell you, wish in you I could confide
Tell you exactly how bad I feel
How reality fails to be real
The tears I cry don't get past my eyes
If reality shows, I cover it with lies
I can't bear to think what would happen if you knew
I can't bear to know what you would do
The screams I build inside of me
Are covering up begging to be free
The pain is tearing me apart
I may have stopped, but again I must start
For without it I feel lost
When I'm not happy what's the cost
Of a little bit of me that is spilled
So the emptiness inside of me can be filled?
I know I said I wouldn't again
But try to understand if you can
I need to do this to be whole
I need to do this to piece together my soul
I need to do this to be able to feel
So I can know exactly what is real