These Words Scream

I'm nobody

Carve skin with a blade to feel deep inside
Bleed out pain cause it hurts like hell
Seeking release, need to hide what I write
They'll freak out if they see what it spells

Cut to release but it's just a distraction
Don't want to be "me" anymore
Their feigning concerned and stunning reactions
Will fade as my death is ignored

Never did care much for friends anyway
They go from one group to the next
Who'd take time from their own busy day
To treat me like some special guest?

Don't look too close it makes me feel strange
I never did like my own face
Give me a knife to fill up this hole
So I feel like I "do" like this place

I stuff things inside but no longer hide
I'll run from my monsters no more
Physical pain is a pleasure compared
To the inner disease I endure

What I fear most is death of my conscious
When I sleep I'm aware
Can't hold my breathe and suffocate to death
And both pills and the noose...

I'm nobody, nobody everyday
You killed when you filled me with lies
Don't try to stope me from fading away
(I'll shine like a star in dark skies)