These Words Scream

Restless nights

I'm breaking
I can't be fixed
I'm missing
But I won't be missed

Still shaking
From what I fear
I can't let you in
So don't come near

I guess you're right
I'm way too thin
And I'm fighting a battle
That I'll never win

I have so many flaws
I don't know where to start
From my messed up hair
To my messed up heart

So what's the point
To continue to fight?
When my restless days
Turn into restless nights

This life hasn't been fair
I can finally tell
That nobody cares
And it hurts like hell

I still don't understand
What was 'God's' cause?
Why did he put me on this earth
With all of my flaws?

Was I born to die?
Am I part of a plan?
Made to finally see
That I won't die an old man

I don't know how to live
I have nothing to gain
And all I want from you
Is to end my pain

I'm losing sight
Of what I've already seen
I'm losing my grip
And I'm barely seventeen