These Words Scream

Carnelian tears

Fires ablaze within my eyes
A smile concealing all my lies
Screaming, begging, calling out
A final, frantic, desperate, shout

Carnelian tears drop from each vein
A vehement cover to end this pain
This silver blade stays by my side
Because all hope inside died

As each day ends and darkness draws
The 'Devil' toys with all my fatal flaws
I'm helpless, alone, a worthless mess
A broken child he must address

I'm tempted when he calls my name
A way out, an escape, an end to shame
To make it feel a lot less real
A deal with the 'Devil' in blood I must seal

They'll say I died of suicide
But no one knows how much They've lied
It wasn't a rope, a blade, a burn, or pills
That broke my soul and gave me chills

I died inside so long before
To live each day and endless chore
Pills could no kill what was already dead
A twisted soul, an empty head

In darkness I wait, in silence, alone
Rose tinged nostalgia, all around me has grown
I beckon the 'Devil' with the key of self harm
And I open the door for him with the blood of my arm