Poems Of The Third Order

The Ghost of What Was

I don't understand what's wrong

I see others do what I haven't for years

I see others mourn their losses

While all I do is sit and watch

Yes I was close to them

Yes I cared very much for them

No I'm not happy they're dead

No I have not had lobotomy

Yes I still feel pain

Yes I still feel sadness

Yes I am human

I've got the scars to prove it

And yet it's always the same

I sit and watch while others cry

And yet I can't due the same

Yes it's true I haven't cried in years

It's true I can't truly mourn

But yet I still feel sadness

But yet I want to mourn

And yet I can't

I can't cry for family and friends

I couldn't die for my lost pets

Yes I wanted to ball and cry

And still I couldn't cry

I watched as love ones died

And yet still I couldn't cry

I've been dumped by love one

And yet I couldn't cry

So do I even still have tears

Or are they just not there

Or are they just the ghost of what was