Jacob Frye x Reader

Chapter 23 - Jealousy's a bitch, ain't it

Staggering back to the train was rather difficult, I suppose I deserve it since I did leave the train instead of resting, like I was told to. But, can you really blame me? I'm an assassin, I'm meant to be out in the field, not lying in bed all day. 'Damn, this hurts like hell.' I begin to think as I wince at the pain that erupts with each passing step. 'I really should have stayed on the train. But, I couldn't help but feel curious about what Jacob was doing. I really wanted to be there with him, but instead, he told me to stay on the train and rest up. Even after what I said, he still told me to stay.' I really couldn't help myself, I just had to know what was going on. I mean, it's not because we almost kissed, again, and that I wanted to stay by his side. I was merely curious, that's all. 'They say curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back. My curiosity has been sated, but the price I pay is rather painful for I have not yet fully healed. I deserve the pain I'm going through right now.'

As I slowly, and painfully, made my way to the train, I couldn't help but think about what I saw, wondering just who that woman is, a sinking feeling igniting within me. 'I have a really bad feeling about her. There's just something about her that makes me instantly dislike her. I mean, she barely knows Jacob and he is already willing to do things for her. What the hell is up with that? I've known him longer than that woman, and she already has him wrapped around her finger.' As I thought this, an unfamiliar feeling begins to bubble deep within me, a familiar I don't ever recall feeling before.

"(Name)?" I heard from a very familiar voice speak out from behind me, causing me to cease my thoughts. My eyes widened as the one person I was just thinking about was the one who called out my name. Trying to not cause any more pain, I slowly turned around and faced him, giving him a fake smile as I spoke.

"Hi Jacob, fancy meeting you here." I giggled forcibly, hoping that he wasn't going to lecture me for being out and about instead of resting, which I really don't want to be hearing after seeing him with another woman. Once again, that feeling returned, but I quickly dismissed the thoughts, not wanting him to figure out that I had been following him today.

"Why are you walking the streets of London, instead of resting back at the train? It's dangerous you know, especially when you're injured." I happened to notice the slight look of disappointment in his eyes, and I couldn't help but look to the ground in shame. It's odd, out of all he men I have come across, Jacob seems to be the only one who has this effect on me, like seeing him disappointed in me leaves me feeling bad about not listening to him.

"I...just wanted to get some fresh air. It's bothersome staying in the train all day, I just had to get out. B-Besides, I'm a restless girl, I need to be doing something instead of lying around all day." I was hoping that my slight hesitation didn't give away the fact that I was lying to him, that I was following him in hopes of finding out what he was up to when he meant that he would go into business, instead of resting. However, it only raised questions, and a bad feeling about that woman. Of course, I wasn't going to tell him that.

"Is that so?" I held my breath, waiting to see if he believed me or not. It was silent for a few moments before he spoke again. "I suppose we best get you back to the train as it's getting late and you need to rest." Nothing else was said as he begins to walk off. Following silently behind him, I let out a small sigh of relief, thankful that he believed my lie. However, a small ounce of guilt stabbed at my heart, knowing that he may find out the truth some time about what I was doing. Pushing away the thought, I simply walked on.

As we walked, I couldn't help but feel as if there was a bit of distance between us, as if something doesn't feel right. My instincts were screaming at me that something was wrong, but I didn't know what it could be, thus I remained silent as we walked.

Jacob's POV

As we walked back to the train, I noticed how oddly silently we both were the whole time, something that has never happened between us. 'Is it just me, or is there somewhat some distance between us?' I couldn't help but think as we walked.

"(Name)." I said as I broke the silence.

"Yeah?" She replied.

"Please, once we get back to the train, stay there and rest. I can't go worrying about you when I'm out there doing what needs to be done."

"I'm sorry." Her voice was nothing more than a whisper and I felt slightly bad for lecturing her. But, I needed to tell her. If I'm too busy worrying about her, I become distracted from the mission. 'Damn it, why is caring for someone so difficult? All I want is to hold her in my arms, kiss her with everything I have, cherish her like she deserves and to never let her go. If only this wasn't our lifestyle, is only we could have been normal people in a normal world, who met under normal circumstances and had a normal relationship. Why is it so complicated?' I thought as I let out a sigh. "Jacob?" I was brought out of my thoughts by her beautiful voice.

"Yeah?"

"I really am sorry for not resting. I know I should've, but I couldn't, no matter how much I try. I'm used to brushing off my injuries, regardless of how bad they are, and continue with work. I'm restless, I need be out in the field, regardless of what condition I'm in. If I'm lying in bed, resting, I feel useless."

"(Name), you could never be useless, you've done a lot already. You need to take a break every now and then, or else you're going to burn out, then you won't be able to do a damn thing. Besides, it's not like you missed much today. I met up with Pearl and destroyed a few omnibuses." Nothing more was said as we had reached the train.

End of POV

Once on the train, I made my way to my carriage, without saying another word, and laid down on my bed, allowing my thoughts to take over. 'So, the woman he met up with is Pearl, the one in competition with Starrick over he omnibuses. However, as soon as I heard her name, the feeling from before ignited once again, leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. My blood boiled at the way he seems to like her.' It was in that moment that realisation hit me like a ton of breaks and I knew what that feeling was. 'Well, jealousy's a bitch, ain't it.' I thought as I let out a sigh and closed my eyes, succumbing to the darkness before my thoughts could drag me down into the depths of darkness.