Bated Breath

C h a p t e r : 8

Y a s m i n e

Saturday Night cont'd

I've been out here for a while in my thoughts with my head buried in the crook of my arm, posted up on the railing of the balcony, in between tears when I heard the door to the balcony open.

"Yasmine..." I looked up and turned away quickly after seeing who it was, hoping he doesn't see my tears. "I hope I didn't make ya uncomf-."

"You didn't...I just...I've got a lot on my mind right now. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to mess up your night-."

"No no! You didn't...as a matta ah' fact I...I'm enjoyin ma' night. And why you apol'gizin'? There's no need fah' dat'." He explained licking his lips, pulling his bottom lip between his teeth. It's so sexy when he bites his lip. A sigh escaped my lips as my head lowered.

"What's wrong ma?" I sighed and wiped the incoming tears away. "Don't cry baybeh." He said pulling me into his arms. The hug caught me by surprise but I can't say I didn't need it right now. "You suppose ta' be enjoyin ya' night Yas. Whateva' it is dat's got you cryin' like dis ain't worth yo' time. " I wiped my tears getting comfortable in his hug. "Such a beautiful woman should always be smilin' neva' cryin'." He said pulling me closer...

This felt so good...

It was relaxing...

I took a deep breath and tightened my grip around him and bit my lip as he caressed my back, rocking us a little. By this time I was feeling the calmest I ever felt in a while...oh my god...wait what?

Dammit Yasmine, what are you doing? I don't even know him so well! My eyes popped open quickly and I pushed against his chest lightly for him to back up a little, but once I looked up into his eyes my hand lingered, lured in by the connection that was made...

He leaned in toward me and so did I. I closed my eyes feeling his lips brush lightly against mine but quickly pulled away feeling a pang of guilt wash over me. I can't do this. It's too soon.

"I can't..." I shook my head and pried myself away from him then I rushed away. I texted a fib to Chante saying Ms. Kelly texted and I needed to get home to Xippora. She offered to come with me but I refused. I didn't want Chris to think of me as a party pooper. 

The limo ride was lonely but at least I was getting out of there. However, I felt so guilty for running out on Anthony like that. I guess I was just scared that I started feeling that kind of connection with someone again and with everything that happened between me and Nate...I just want to avoid relationships at all cost. Besides, what I feel could just be me wanting to feel needed again.

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After saying my goodnight, I carefully carried Xippora to her crib and kissed her forehead. At that same moment I saw a light coming from my phone. It was a WhatsApp call from Chante.

"Hey."

"Hey, is my little sweetheart OK?" I smiled sat on the edge of my bed.

"She is now. She just wanted mommy." I said going along with it.

"Whew! Ok great. I was worried you know. But I'm happy she's ok. Anthony was worried too but I told him what happened. He looked a little confused but I guess he figured it out? It was weird." I sighed mentally beating myself up for leaving him like that. He must feel terrible.