Bated Breath

C h a p t e r : 16

Y a s m i n e

Sunday February 28th, 2016

My body slowly awoke forcing my eyes open.

Where am I?

As my eyes took in the environment I quickly remembered where I was. Outside was still dark...what time is it? I searched for my phone and once I found it I saw that it was 3:38 a.m.

Damn...

I looked under the blanket and saw Toni's arm tightly wrapped around my naked body and behind me he was knocked out. I bit my lips and blushed at the site making myself comfortable.

I tingled thinking about what went down last night, remembering every way he touched me. He was nervous which surprised me because this was one area a man is always felt confident in, but I was happy that he took his time. He was...gentle.

I felt like...like we made love...

This felt a lot different from the way Nathan and I did it. This time it felt right...like this is the way I was supposed to lose my virginity. It made me wish Toni was my first. I bit my lip and closed my eyes as I went over everything that happened from start to finish.

Sadly, guilt crept it's way into my mind pulling me down from my high. We aren't even together and we had sex. My head must really be messed up.

I slowly rose up being careful not to wake Toni. This is where I realized that he was a heavy sleeper unlike myself where the slightest thing would wake me.

The breeze was nipping at my skin so I quickly threw one of the extra blankets over me and sat at the tent opening. While I looked around outside, a million thoughts ran through my mind...

I never do this kinda thing...

I don't just give it up that easily!

What if he thinks of me differently because of this?

Jesus Christ Yaz! How could you be so stupid? I rolled my eyes and shook my head feeling disgusted. How much more messed up could I be?

"Hey..." I heard Toni say.

"Hey." I swallowed and answered. I felt his arms go around me after he dug his face into the crook of my neck. I closed my eyes and sighed in pleasure feeling goosebumps on my body. "You ok?" He asked, his voice deep and groggy...that shit sounded so sexy. I kept silent and nodded. I felt him shift and grab my chin with his index and thumb bringing my face to meet his. "You sure?" He asked trying to read my emotions.

"Yeah..." I forced and smile and bit my lips trying my best to seem believable, but I don't think it was. He looked concerned. His phone started ringing so he answered and it was the helicopter company. They were coming to get us because our time was almost up, so I helped him pack up and when they came we left.

As he drove he glanced at me from the corner of his eyes quite frequently. The ride home was silent all the way to Ms. Kelly's.

Once we arrived, I stalled, doing everything in slow motion waiting for him to say something, but he didn't. What if he doesn't want anything to do with me after what happened?