To Meet A Star ✔ (Star Series #1)

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I locked myself inside my room again. I feel so heinous and I don't think I still can forgive myself. Sana hindi na lang ako nagsalita. Sana hinayaan ko na lang siya roon na mag-isa. I should've ignored him. Stoneheart it is.

Things did not get better for me each time continues to pass by. I just feel worse and worse. Hindi ako makapagisip ng mabuti. My mind was like shadowed by something I couldn't name.

Nang bumaba ako sa sala ay nakita ko silang tatlo. They looked at me in unison with their concerned eyes. I feel like they pity me so much.

I plastered a thrift smile and walked past them. Dumiretso ako sa kitchen counter at agad na kumuha ng pitsel at uminom. Naramdaman ko kaagad ang presensya ni Daddy sa gilid ko kaya mabilis kong binaba ang baso sa lamesa at hinarap siya.

"I'm okay, Dad," inunahan ko na.

Gusto ko lang din na i-assure na okay lang ako kahit masakit pa rin.

"Anak..."

Nahihimigan ko ang halo halong emosyon. Awa, lungkot at sakit. Ito ang hirap kapag nasasaktan ka. You unintentionally hurt the people that love you unconditionally. Kahit ayaw mong mandamay, kung mahal ka ng mga taong na sa paligid mo, masasaktan mo pa rin sila. Even if you do not want the idea. It's something you cannot halt. It's out of your control.

"I've seen you both in various types of days. You both conquer things together. Kung may problema ka ay siya ang nalalapitan mo, hindi ba?"

Hindi ko makuha ang punto ni Daddy ngayon pero tumango pa rin ako. Maybe he also wants to pull our red strings.

"Pero sana kahit may problema kayo ngayon... You won't set aside your care for your friend. He's always been there for you, Anak. Sana ay gano'n ka rin sakaniya..."

"I just need some time to think po. We'll eventually make things better—"

"I'm not just talking about the quarrel you two have been experiencing recently. I'm talking about Sequi's personal problem, Anak..."

Kumunot ang noo ko. I suddenly want the news to be spoonfeed. Gusto ko nang malaman kaagad dahil nahihimigan ko na hindi maganda ang gusto niyang sabihin saakin.

"A-ano po 'yon? I-I didn't know..."

Bumuntonghininga siya at tipid na ngumiti. Pagod na pagod ang mga mata ni Daddy.

"David was shot—"

"Sequi's dad?!"

Hindi ko na napigilan ang emosyon ko. Shock and fear started to dominate my system. I can't even move.

"Since w-when, dad?"

Nanalalamig ang mga kamay ko. He's so good! Sequi loves him so much! It must've hurt him a lot.

"Yesterday night—"

"No way..."

Pain after pain. I can't believe I've inflicted him emotional pain before the incident! How's he right now? Dapat ay nalaman ko kaagad. He needs me. Ang unfair ko... When I needed him the most, he's always there even if I don't utter words to summon him to me.

Hindi ako nagsayang ng oras. Everything was thrown for the meantime. The betrayal, the lies and the confessions were ignored that fast. Nag-ayos kaagad ako ng gamit sa kwarto ko. Dad is already in the car, waiting for me.

I used my white duffel bag and put some clothes I'd be needing just in case. Nang nakapag-ayos na ay pumunta na ako kay Daddy. Mom and Ate are laughed alone in the house. Bibisita rin daw sila mamaya.