To Meet A Star ✔ (Star Series #1)

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The absence of Sequi to my life served a big effect on how I face my everyday routine. Almost every night after our call, I will hug my pillow so tight and will cry. Madalas ko ring dalawin ang palagi naming pinupuntahan kasama si Seia. It hurts me still, but somehow it helped me overcome it and be immuned with his absence.

Nasanay na rin ako sa pagsama kay Daddy sa opisina. I learned more about business and I am so happy, too,  that I helped my Dad in some anomalies our company has faced. May alam naman kasi ako sa business kahit papaano. After all, my course is all about business.

Ate continued studying veterinary. She's not struggling that much since Mom always helps her about stuffs she couldn't understand. Mom is her first teacher. Her professors are just... I don't know. I just know that Mom is the best educator slash professor.

Months after Sequi's flight, Isaac went to me... and he confessed! I can't believe he had feelings for me. And he told me it started when we were in college. Palagi niya raw akong tinitignan sa malayo. Hindi ko alam kung nagsasabi siya ng totoo, but I don't want to invalidate someone's feelings.

"I'm sorry... I accept your confession, but I can't accept you... I'm really sorry,"

Sobrang lambot ng ekspresyon ko dahil ayaw ko talagang nanakit ng tao.  If only if we can control someone else's mind, then we can save them from being hurt.

Napasinghap siya, hindi makapaniwala. He looked away and brushed his nose with his fingers. Tila napahiya ko ata siya o ano. It wasn't really my intention. If he feels like it is, then I'm sorry even more.

"Why Sequi?"

He suddenly asked. His tone was like he's been asking that question to himself many time already.

"I don't know..." I shrugged and played with my keys. "He just feels so right for me,"

Ngumisi siya ng mayabang. He thinks I'm blubbering nonsense. Medyo nainis ako roon.

"You're just used to him. You don't love him. Wait for months and you'll realize..."

That day, I just watched his car drove away with him inside. Nakatitig lang ako roon hanggang sa mawala at nanatili ang titig ko sa dinaanan ng sasakyan niya. I stopped playing with my keys and sighed.

I also thought about that. But it's been months and my feelings for him are still here, never left. And I don't think it will even after years and decades. It's so strong... na kahit gaano pa karami ang sumubok na gibain ang kung anong meron ako sakaniya ay walang makakagawa.

Habang on the way ako sa café ni Cariz na malapit niya nang isara ay may naisip ako sa sasakyan ko. I'm riding Sequi's Rezvani. He told me it's mine now, so I claimed it.

I remembered when I was so in denial with my feelings with him. Dahil takot akong masira ang kung anong meron saamin. I realized it's a normal reaction since everything was so sudden. Biglaan na lang siyang nag confess. My heart wasn't prepared for it and even my soul.

Kalaunan ay napagtanto ko na mas malaki ang tsansang mawala siya nang tuluyan sa buhay ko kung hahayaan ko siyang mapunta sa iba. That's the thing I think I couldn't bear to see. Him falling for someone else, him caging someone else, him kissing other girl, hugging her, spoiling her and so on...

I just thought before that... When bestfriends fall in with each other, be in a relationship and break up, they can never be friends again. Everything will change, everything will vanish. Those were the things kept on hunting me before. Pulling me to do and say things I really love.