Twilight plus one

Chapter 45. Surprise surprise.

"Colton." I breathed out. He smirked as he heard my heartbeat flutter softly. Like a patter of the wings of a bird "What are you doing here? I thought you said you needed time to yourself?" Do I hug him? After everything, should I even talk to him? Even breath the same air he breathes? 

He began to strut towards me, his arms out like he was approaching something dangerous. Hell, maybe he was and we both didn't know it. "Em, listen-" 

"NO!" I roared. I don't know what came out of me in that moment. It was like a roaring fire was building inside my chest, like a dragon who held the flame in to long. "You don't get to do this. You don't get to come in my whenever you want. You don't get to be with me when ever you decide. Do you understand that I have cried myself to sleep for almost a week now? Because of you! So why do you get to come back like this?" 

He had finally reached me, his eyes never leaving mine. "Because I love you."

'Because I love you.' The sentence kept replaying like a broken record in my head. Why is it after all this time I can still easily forgive him like nothing has happened. He erased everything in my head. He erased all the times I cried in my pillow. He made me feel powerful when I was feeling weak. He was and is my everything. 

"Do you not understand what you put me through? My family is absolutely furious at you and to be honest so am I." I didn't know how this was gonna end for him. Carlise and Esme were both frustrated with him. The two most calmest people on this planet and somehow Colton was able to piss them off. 

"I know what I put you through." Colton admitted. 

"Then why did you do it? If you knew what you were doing, why didn't you stop? Why didn't you just come back?" He looked away ashamed. Of course I wasn't going to get an answer out of him. "Why, Colton? Because to be honest with you I do forgive you but I can't keep doing this. We. . . We can't keep doing this." I corrected myself. 

"I know!" With a gust of wind he was within inches from me. His familiar scent surrounded me like a love potion. "I know. Baby I am so sorry. You've got to understand though, I needed time to think, to process some things." 

"What?" Now I forgave him and all but did he honestly think I would fall for that. Another 'It's not you, It's me' situation. "What did you have to think about?" Was it about us? Was he leaving me for good? Did he come back to just tell me he was leaving? 

"I had think about things." He didn't specify. He never did. He placed his hands on the side of my face. He swiped his thumbs underneath my eyes and looked straight into my eyes. "Now please listen to me Emily. Please? I swear I didn't do anything to hurt. I would never. I love you with all my heart. You are my soul and you have and always will have my heart. Listen to my heartbeat; I am not leaving you. I didn't come back to leave you, I promise. Okay?" 

H-how did he know what I was thinking? He took the words right out of my head. I couldn't voice my thoughts. It was like I couldn't say no to him. It was probably my mind screaming at me telling me I was crazy. "Yes." I found myself saying. "I believe you." But did I really though?

"Good girl." He placed a feathered kiss on my forehead and smiled. "So what did I miss?" 

"My lips." I replied while leaning in. His smile never left his face as he met mine. 

His lips. Oh, God his lips. I never thought I would miss them so much but I did. I missed his light touches in the darkness when it was just us in our bed. I missed his strong arms around me as he fought off all my demons in the night. I missed the way his voice rang through my ears as if they were music of their own and all I wanted to do was listen to it on repeat.