Gone

Chapter 72 [Spencer] The Death Drug *

    Wrapping my arms around Tessa as tightly as I possibly can, just makes me want to straight up leave this world. Because this is the only time I feel truely happy. Nothing is better than this... Than this unbelievable feeling of being so in love with her. After all this time, all these years, even after her moving away and us breaking up, I'm still head over heals for this girl. She's been through hell and back after getting the abortion, and then moving away, so I wish nothing more but happiness for her. The past, is the past. And if we both could change it then we would go back in time and make everything okay. But that won't happen. So I have to deal with what's going on now.

"What if Juliana and Blaze get found by Brock or someone before they make it over to Mickey?" She suddenly asks me, clearing out all of the memories and thoughts out of my head.

"Don't even say that," I groan, quickly shaking my head. "They won't."

"But what if they don't?" She begs me to have a straight answer but truthfully... I don't know.

"Listen to me Tess," I rush out under my breath, pulling her into a hug holding her gently against my chest. "Everything's gunna work out just fine. I mean, shit's going okay right now, so as long as Blaze finds Mickey and gets her away from Janel, we all just got to hop in a car and get the hell out of here. Alright?"

I feel her nod as she pulls me closer to her. "I'm kind of scared," I hear her whisper, even as some loud obnoxious kids pass by us. 

I put my hand on the back of her head and kiss her cheek. "Of what? Babe, I hate to break it to you, but this prick isn't after you. He's just after three of us. Mickey, Blaze, and me. Since we were all there that night. Jace came forward and told the cops what happened and that he was there, so they let me get bailed out by my lawyer and Jace said he'll testify for me in court. The truth. That is was just me using self defense so I wouldn't be murdered by that wackjob..."

"But  I'm not scared for me," she quickly says, pulling back and taking my face between her hands.

I frown. "Then who are you scared for?"

"For you," she gasps, her bottom lip quivering which is what she does before she cries. "I don't want you to die, Spence. I still love you. I've never stopped loving you."

"I know that." I pull her into me again as she clings to my body like I'm her life support.

"What do we do now?"

I stay silent for maybe a minute, trying to make it last for as long as possible, until I pull her away so I can look straight into her eyes. "Would it make you feel better if I lied to you and told you I know exactly what I'm doing, when I really don't?" I try to make a joke out of it as she scowls.

"This is SO not funny, Spencer."

"It kind of is--"

"It is not!" She argues as I grab the back of her neck and force my lips onto hers,  exploring her sweet minty tasting mouth with my tongue, holding her closer to me sliding my hands down onto her waist. She wraps her arms around my neck and I kiss her for as long as I can, before we break the kiss to look into eachothers eyes.

"If you want honesty... Are you sure you want to hear it?" I cautiously ask as she shrugs. 

"Yeah."

"I don't have any idea what's going to go down tonight, Tess. I don't know what the hell's gunna happen. A gang leader is after us, has a warrant out for his arrest, and wants us dead," I hesitates before slightly cringing. "Especially me..."