Double Lives

The White Room

"Hello Emma," I hear this man say to me once again.

My heart dropped. Could the man standing in front of me really be Neal? I close my eyes again but when I open them back up again, he's still there staring at me.

"Neal is it really you?" He nods as he walks up to me.

"It seems that we aren't teens anymore." I chuckle as tears start to form in my eyes. I couldn't help but hug him. He hugged me back and I was so happy. He was my best friend, before I had anyone I had him.

That's when it hit me, he had died.

"Neal, I'm sorry I couldn't save you, you died on that street. It was all my fault, if I wasn't so stubborn..." he then puts a finger on my lips so I could shut up.

"Emma it's ok, there's nothing to forgive." I half smile.

"I've missed you so so much Neal." He smiles. "I know." He then takes his hand and caresses my cheek. I couldn't help but smile. That's when another realization hit. How the hell am I seeing him, unless I'm dreaming or am I dead?

I back away and I started to look around. The white room turned into my old living room. Neal smiles. "Remember this place?" I smiled as I walked around. "My living room." He nods. I sit down and I looked at my controller from my video game. He sits next to me.

"We would spend so much time here." He nods. I then stood up and shook my head. "Neal where are we?" He sighs. "You're dying Emma." I gasp. That's when I see the stairs. "I have to leave." I ran down the steps and made my way to the front door. Once I get to the door I don't see a door knob. "You can't leave Emma." I gasp. "Neal." He nods.

"I have to get back to my daughters and...." He nods. "Killian." I nod. "I was rather surprised to see you end up with him." I nod. "Neal I loved you, I honestly did but.." He nods. "It's ok Emma, I know we were just friends." I half smile. "Please Neal help me, I can't let Killian raise the girls by himself." He sighs.

"There's Nothing I can do Emma." A tear starts to form in my eye. "You see this is the place where you're meant to stay for the rest of eternity." I gasp. "And this is where you've been?" He nods. "Since the day you died in my arms?" He nods.

"This doesn't make sense you should be a kid." He nods. "I know but this is how I've been since I woke up from there." I then go and hug him. "I suffered so much without you." He kisses the top of my head. I back away and sigh.

"But Neal I have to get back home." He sighs. "Emma I've tried to go back but I can't. I'm dead and you will be too." Tears started to fall down my cheek. "There's no way?" He shakes his head then gasps. "There is one way that you can see them but you can't go back." I wipe the tears away.

"Anything is better than nothing." He nods. "Come on." We walk up the stairs and went to my room. We stand in front of my mirror and the reflection changes. I see myself laying in a bed, connected to a machine. That's when I see Killian. I touch the mirror and start to bang on it.

I scream but of course he can't hear me. That's when the doctors come. They talk to him and his face drops. I gasp. "Neal What are they telling him?" He shrugs. That's when the doctors hand him some papers. I look at the papers and I gasp when I take a good look at them. They're papers for taking a patient off life support.

I turn around and I start to cry into Neal's chest. "Neal please help me, I have to get back to my family. We've been apart for so long, I need to get back to my Leía, my Hope and my husband." He sighs and caresses the back of my head. "I can't." I back away and looked at the mirror. That's when I see Killian carrying a little baby girl with blonde hair.

Is that? Leía or Hope? How are they so big, they look like they're 7 months old. Neal sighs. "Time moves differently here, you've been in that state for months." I gasp. I look back at the mirror and listen carefully. "Look Leía it's mommy." I hear Killian say and my heart fluttered. Leía clapped and extended her arms towards my body.

I wanted to grab my baby but I couldn't. That's when I hear another cry. That must be Hope. That's when Abigail walks up with a baby girl with black hair. Is that my Hope? "Look Hope that's mommy." Hope buried her face in Abigail's neck and extended her hand out towards my body. I was crying so much. I wanted to hold my babies, this wasn't fair.

"Neal I should be there not here." He nods. "I'm sorry Emma, there's nothing I can do." I sat on my bed and stared at the mirror. That's when I see Abigail talking to my body. "Emma I know you're not brain dead, come back to us, fight we all need you." She touches my hand and I felt it.

"Neal that must be a sign." He sighs. "I felt your touch when I was dying too, doesn't mean anything." I sigh. "So there's no way?" He shakes his head. "I'm sorry Emma." I nod. "So this is it?" He nods. That's when we hear the doctor say something to Killian that made him cry.

"Tomorrow at 9am, we will take your wife off of life support." My heart dropped. What felt like a couple of minutes here, was months down where my body was at. Tomorrow I'm dead which means that in a couple of minutes I'm going to die.

"Neal can I be alone for a sec?" He nods and closes the door as he walks out. I stared at the mirror and saw everyone. I can't believe this was happening. That's when I see that Killian was alone just staring down at my body.

"Emma fight for us, fight for the love we have, fight for our daughters, for your friends and most importantly for yourself." He grabs my hand and I felt it. "I love you Emma, and I don't have the heart to say goodbye." That's when he leans down and kisses me. I felt his lips on mine.

I slightly touched my lips and started to cry once again. "I love you too Killian." He stood up and looked around. "Emma was that you?" My heart stopped. Did he just hear me? He looked down at me and smiled.

"Emma can you hear me?" My heart fluttered. Maybe I do have a chance to get back home. Now all I need is to let him know that I'm alive.

As I'm about to say something to Killian something unthinkable happens right in front of my eyes. Never in a million years would I have thought that this would happen, my only chance at getting home was gone.