(Fem.)Percy Meets Avengers

Didja Know Ice Is Just Water

Trigger warning

I blew an air bubble and watched as it floated up to the surface.

I can't do this.

I just can't.

Everywhere I look...

I see him.

The climbing wall?

The time he pushed me down it while we were racing.

The arena? All the times we trained together.

My cabin?

The times when he would sneak in because he knew I wasn't sleeping at all.

So tell me.

How can I stay there? It was his home. More than it will ever be mine.

My Lady. Are you okay?

I looked at the fish. "Yeah. I'm good."

It swam over and lightly bumped into my shoulder. Okay my Lady. May I be dismissed?

"You don't need my permission to go."

The fish darted off.

And me?

I pulled my legs to my chest and...

I cried.

Maybe he would forgive me...

He should know that I would feel like this.

But...is it selfish for me to want to end it?

Because everyone else would suffer.

But...then isn't it selfish for them to want me to go on living like this?

In constant suffering?

Wishing that each time I fell asleep that I won't wake up?

I shook my head.

Which way would be the easiest?

I can't drown myself so that's out of the question.

Poison...probably wouldn't kill me, too much of that in the Pit.

I could let a monster kill me.

But who knows how long that would take. Some monsters do like suffering.

Sighing I pulled out Riptide. I guess this will do.

Percy?!

I winced. What Dad? I made sure to keep my voice as stable as possible.

Wait...if I'm talking to him telepathically...is it my voice?

Where are you? Are you okay?

Wait...why can't he just pick up my location? I'm in the water.

In the water Dad. I'm fine.

For now.

And couldn't you have just picked up on my location anyway?

Uh....yeah. But I wanted to make sure you were going to tell me the truth.

He doesn't trust me.

Well, to be fair...I wouldn't trust me either.

I'm good Dad. But thanks for worrying.

No problem. Just stay safe.

I chuckled darkly and laid back.

Stay safe he says.

Since when have I ever been safe?