Straight (Jikook)

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Flashback
Yoongi was feeling so restless all day. Seeing Jimin's awful behavior, Jungkook's falling apart, the way he could see Hoseok and Taehyung struggling to hide something, was making him so nervous. He wanted to know.

He knew that him being kept in oblivion was only going cause more wreckage. They had worked too hard for it all to crumble down because of some unknown and possibly small and petty reasons.
He needed to talk it out with someone and he knew there only two other members who were probably feeling the same way.

Yoongi knocked on Jin's and Namjoon's door.
"Hyung? Joon? You guys up?" He said timidly. 
"Come in, hyung." Namjoon smiled at him as he opened the door.
"Sit. Wassup?" Namjoon asked him and sat next to him.
"I... Am I the only one who sees there's something wrong between Jimin and Jungkook? And that Tae and Hobi are hiding something?" Yoongi breathed out, disheartened. He didn't know if it was all in his mind.
Namjoon looked at Jin who got up, grabbed a chair and sat in front of Yoongi.

"I know. We see it too. But I don't know what is actually wrong with them. I've been thinking all day and night for the past few days. But nothing strikes me. Besides Namjoon thinks it's only a small lover's tiff that's bothering, Hobi and Tae. And Jungkook is probably fighting with Lalisa and Jimin is sleeping around too much. But i--"
"Hyung, stop. I told you everything is fine between Jungkook and Jimin " Namjoon was exasperated. He did initially agree with Jin and Yoongi's idea but he couldn't think of a single thing that could be causing awkwardness between them.

"Joon. I really do think it's more than that. Don't you see? Things are literally crumbling down and we're unable to stop it. " Yoongi gulped and looked away.
Namjoon let out a sigh. There probably was a reason why both his hyungs felt like it. He should trust them.
"Hyung.."

"Let's just... Let's try to find out atleast. Please. " Jin looked at Yoongi for backup.
"He's right. Let's not push them but let's try to get to the bottom of it. Even if it's nothing. " Yoongi said.

It probably was something important though, or else why would they feel the need to hide it from them.
"Hyung... I..." Namjoon looked at his distraught hyungs. They looked so tired, it broke his heart.
"Okay, hyung. Let's find out " Namjoon said looking out of the window in his room.
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"Don't you fucking dare!" Jungkook said through gritted teeth and Jimin jerked his arm off.
" You've fucked around while she chose to stay and try, you don't get to call her a whore " Jungkook's eyes widened as he felt anger take over.

It wasn't because he was in love with Lisa but he had already been unfair to her. She didn't deserve to be called names for a mistake he made. It wasn't her fault.

"Oh. So are we hurt now? What about you treating me like a whore? Sleeping with me and then choosing her. Fucking bastard." Jimin turned around to leave.
"Listen to me fucking carefully. I didn't rape you. You fucked me when I was drunk" Jungkook pulled him back again and Jimin clenched his jaw shut as he tried to get Jungkook to leave his wrist.

"And the next morning? Did I ask you to fuck me, Jeon? You did it all by yourself. " Jimin's face grew hotter as he lost control over his emotions.
"You were the one begging for my cock. " Jungkook smiled sarcastically at Jimin.

"Stop it. I loved you!" Jimin blurted out.
"You loved me? That is why you chose to fuck around? Jimin, I admitted that I made a mistake. You can keep lying to yourself that I didn't choose you but infact I came back twice. Once I found you getting fucked and the other time, in your fucker's clothes." Jungkook gulped as his hand formed a fist. He was trying to keep it as civil as possible but Jimin was pushing his boundaries.

"Oh stop it, Jungkook. You didn't expect me to wait forever! Isn't it too much to ask for?"  Jimin's tears fell eventhough he tried his level best to fight them.
"What did you just say?" Jungkook let go of Jimin's wrist.

Jimin looked confused for a second.
"Too much to ask for? I'll tell you what's too much to ask for!" Jungkook shouted.

"It's too much to ask for a 21 year old who was always thought that love can only exist between and man and a woman, to forget everything he was taught. To leave his girlfriend of one year in just one day. To tell his family that he wants to spend the rest of his life with a man and risk losing them forever! It's too much for that boy to forget everything that's made him this scared to love a man. This is too much! " Jungkook screamed at Jimin.

"Jungkook.." Jimin tried.
"It wasn't too much for one to expect that the man who claimed to have been in love with him for years, to help him through this. To erase his fear, those...Those nightmares. Those memories. It wasn't too much for me to expect this,Jimin." Jungkook's tears fell onto the wooden floor as he took a step back from Jimin.

"Was it?" Jungkook asked. His voice shaky.

"You never told me what scared you. You just picked her. You couldn't hurt her but you hurt me. We made love but then you just.." Jimin was interrupted again.
"How much did you try to find out? I was scared of coming out, a fear you know too well." Jungkook said between his sobs.

"You just didn't want me. You were selfish. You were scared and so you chose that slut.."
"Don't!" Jungkook shouted at him.

"What has happened to you, Jimin? It's not her fault. We did this. I did this. Don't drag her into this. Do not. " Jungkook glared at Jimin. Tears gone, anger back.

"Leave me alone! Get out of my life! I don't want you!" Jimin said looking away. The words shot through Jungkook's heart. And then there was pin drop silence.

"You know what. You never loved me." Jungkook said coldly and Jimin was shocked. This was ridiculous! He had always loved him! Everyone knew!

"This isn't love. You hurting me, making me suffer and abandoning me for being scared, isn't love. I love you, Jimin. I was willing to give up everything, even Lalisa knows this little trial will fail. But she loves me, she chose to stay and help me rediscover myself. She never asked for anything in return. " Jungkook's tears fell as his heart pounded. Jimin wanted to say something but it was as if he had lost his vocabulary.
"The hyungs love me for trying to know why I'm losing myself. My parents love me because they call and worry about my health. They don't hurt me when I hurt them. "

"You're selfish for hurting everyone around you just because you're unhappy. Jimin, love isn't what you think it is. Just to think that I should have left Lisa in a second to prove my love to you, it's a sad understatement." Jungkook walked up to Jimin and looked down into his big wide eyes. Jimin froze as Jungkook's tears flowed endlessly. He wanted to reach out and cup his face but his body just wasn't responding. He was in shock from hearing Jungkook's words.

" I have been fighting my inner demons so bad... It takes every nerve in my body to gather the courage to love you and kiss you." Jungkook cupped Jimin's jaw and kissed him softly. His tears falling onto Jimin's hand that was on his chest, feeling his fast heartbeat. His irregular breathing.

His lips kissing him as if it's their last.

Jungkook placed his hand on Jimin's.
"Like I said... I live for you. I breathe for you. And I love you." Jungkook kissed Jimin again.

"But all you've done is break me and left me to clean up your mess. You got what you've wanted. I'm leaving you alone, Jimin. " Jungkook kissed Jimin hard, slowly backed off and left.

Author's note

I'm so sad these days that I'm just exhausted.

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