i can't skateboard • {z.h.❕j.a.}

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"that's who i like, your turn."

zach took a minute to process his words.

my mind quickly became cloudy as i looked at jack, who's head was resting on his hand.

"y-you're joking, right?" zach asked as he chuckled nervously.

zach had no idea how to respond, he felt the same but he was really bad with confessions.

jack shook his head as he leaned back in his seat, "nope."

zach began messing with the fabric of his joggers, feeling his anxiety peak as if he just figured out what jack actually said.

holy shit, jack avery likes me.

zach cleared his throat before nodding, "wanna guess?"

"fine, is it a boy or a girl?" jack's eyebrow went up as a smirk formed on his lips.

zach blinked, "that was a dumb ass question."

jack began to chuckled before grabbing his cup, "okay then, what are his initials?"

zach glanced down,"including the middle, j, r, and a."

jack rested his arms on the table with a smile on his face, "does his name rhyme with zach?"

"yeah, i believe its spelled differently though" zach said as he stared at the table becoming interested in the red color.

he glanced up to see jack nodding, "so is it, j-a-c-k?"

"yep, know any jack's?" zach said as he watched the the smile appear on jack's lips.

"i'm pretty sure i know one quite well, i he one hundred percent likes you" jack said as he fiddled with the straw in his cup.

zach shook his head as he chuckled, "i know, he confessed earlier."

"oh really? how would you respond if he asked you to be his boyfriend?" jack whispered as he looked down.

zach could feel his cheeks burning as he looked at jack as he nervously bit his lip while he stared down.

"definitely yes" zach said as he bit the inside of his cheek.

jack immediately met zach's eyes, "really?"

zach nodded and jack laughed, "well then do you have a pen on you?"

he shook his head and jack got up and ran up to the cashier and zach watched him with curiosity.

jack was writing something from what zach could see as he watched his arm move quickly.

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he returned with a napkin and a pen and slid them in front of zach before sitting back down.

zach looked at the napkins already knowing what was written on the other side of the napkin without even turning it over.

he flipped the napkin over.

zachary dean herron, will you be my boyfriend?

  ◻ yes
  ◻ yes

zach laughed before glancing up to jack who was smiling as he sipped on his dr. pepper

"what are you five?" he said and jack just continued to drank his drink.

he shook his head as he checked both boxes with a smile never leaving his lips as he passed the napkin back.

"double yes?" jack smiled brightly, "i didn't have any other choice" zach said.

"you said and i quote, 'definitely yes' so don't come at me" jack replied.

jack walked zach home, holding hands from jimmy john's all the way to zach's house.

they stopped right in front of zach's house and suddenly jack pecked zach's cheek.

before zach could say anything jack was running across the street, "see you tomorrow, zach!"

zach smiled as the feeling of butterflies swarmed around his stomach as he watched jack disappear around a corner.

"holy shit, i have a boyfriend, holy shit."

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"my heart can't take this damage."

i could barely relate to those words, sure i had lost loved ones and had moments where i thought my world was ending. you were always there for me to fall back on, late at night when things were going downhill, you were there. i mean, shit you were there even when i was smiling. i've never been so mad at my mom for letting my brother go to one of your concerts and not me. three tickets and he got to take his friends, said something like, "you're to young and his music is way too violent." violent? still makes me laugh sometimes. but, i'm still mad, hell i'm super mad at whoever took you away. why'd you have to go? you we're twenty, way to young to go.

now i fully understand your words, it hurts a lot, kind of feels like i lost someone i've known for years.

i'll miss you jahseh.

{january 23, 1998 - june 18, 2018}