The secret

Chapter 24: Part 1

Lizeth's POV

I had no choice now. I had to tell him. If I don't tell him then Rebecca will and I rather him hear it from me then hear it from her. She is just gonna make things worse. Bullies always make things worse.

Joel: Baby, please calm down! No me gusta verte llorar! -He had his arms wrapped around me as I cried on his shoulder.

Lizeth: Alright, ok... -I said trying to breath in and out to help me calm down- I need to tell you everything!

Joel: No, you don't have to! You can tell me when you are ready and clearly you aren't!

Lizeth: If I don't tell you then Rebecca will and I don't want you to hear it from her!

Joel: Baby you don....

Lizeth: Joel! Please just listen! Don't make this harder than it is! -He greed and sat in front of me on the sand in silence- Alright it's time for you to know everything! Just please let me tell you everything before you talk again! Okay? -He gave me a nod-

Lizeth: There is a lot me and Zabdiel didn't tell you. To begin with, Zabdiel is only my half brother as you know. What we didn't tell you is the following. My dad was married to Zabidel's mom and he was cheating on her with my mom. My mom didn't know about her existence until Zabdiel was born. My dad got my mom pregnant by accident that is why Zabdi is only a couple of months older than me. Well my dad did everything he could to keep both pregnancies a secret from one another. Meaning that Zabdi's mom didn't know about my mom and she didn't know about hers. When Zabdiel was born my mom found out about everything and she rushed to the hospital with my dad. When Zabdi's mom gave birth to him she passed away. My dad never told me why or how neither did my mom. She just told me and Zabdiel that it just happened. My dad was devastated and that's how it all began. My mom took Zabdiel in as if he was her own blood and I think that she is the greatest woman alive for that! How often does a woman take in a baby that is not hers from a cheating bastard? Anyway well my dad was never the same. He had just lost the love of his life and he entered a very deep state of depression. When I was born he wasn't even at the hospital. He was at a bar with one of his friends getting drunk off his ass! I hated him for that! I really did. My aunt and grandma were with my mom when I was born. After that my dad promised my mom that he was gonna be there for her for everything that was to comes next in their future. She believed him and gave him another chance. Well from ages 1-4 I had a dad. I wish I could remember those years. When I was 5 my dad entered that state again after a visit from one of Zabdiel's uncles. I don't know exactly what happened because my mom never wanted to tell us but something happened and my dad entered that stage again. I never saw him without bottle of alcohol after that. I barely saw him. I saw him every once in a while during dinner and heard him come home drunk in the middle of the night. My mom always said it was a stage and that it would all get better but everything just got worse. When I was 10 he hit rock bottom or what we thought was rock bottom. Him and mom my had a talk and I guess she opened his eyes. He was all of a sudden there for us. He took Zabdi to his first concert and took me to all my soccer practices and was there for all my games! Even if I was in the bench not playing he would still be there.  -All those memories made me smile! Those 4 years were the best of my life- I felt like a normal kid for the first time! Everything was great, we were all happy! Hasta amenazo a un niño que vino a la casa a estudiar conmigo pensando que era mi novio. -I let out a small chuckle and Joel did too- Everything was fine, actually better than fine! It was  freaking great! Until I was 14. He picked up the bottle again. Four years of being sober were just out the window! I don't know when he started to drink again but he just did one night out of the blue. Things after that got so bad! -Tears began to roll down my cheeks. I sat there in silence while looking down at the sand.-

Joel: Hey, it's ok!- He lifted my head up and gave me a kiss on the lips. This was his way of saying that he was here for me and to make me feel better I guess and it of course worked.-

After our lips drifted apart I continued...

Lizeth: One night he came home really drunk. My mom served dinner when he came home. He was angry and I had no idea why. While my mom was serving his plate she accidentally fell on my soccer ball that was in the middle of the kitchen floor. When she fell the plate shattered and food was everywhere. Instead of worrying about her and seeing if she was ok, he started yelling at her. "MIRA LO QUE LE PASÓ A LA COMIDA! PORQUE ERES TAN ESTUPIDA!!" He yelled at her! Me and Zabdi ran to my mom to see if she was ok and we helped her clean up the mess. He just sat at the dinner table with a bottle of whiskey. After that day my mom became afraid of him. The alcohol took control of his life and we didn't know what he could be capable of. We lived in fear of him for the next few years. Then this summer is when everything got even worse! At the begging of the summer something happened. He came in one night really, really drunk! Me and Zadie were in our room. At that time we shared a room and it wasn't actually that bad. It was like sharing a room with your best friend. -I just smiled at all the memories we shares when we shared a room such as him stealing my hidden candy and me chasing him around the house hitting him with a pillow. This was when we were 12. Then we would end up eating the rest of the candy in the bed while watching YouTube. There were many more great memories like that.- Then all of a sudden we heard yelling coming from our parent's room so we ran. We saw my dad yelling at my mom. My mom kept saying sorry while crying and...-My vision became foggy from how watery my eyes were.- and I remember him grabbing her from the hair and pulling her off the bed. He umm -I started to cry once again.- he pulled her to the kitchen. He saw us but just passed by. Zabdiel wanted to do something but I stopped him. I was afraid that he would get hurt that it would come down to my dad hitting him so I stopped him and we just followed them to the kitchen. My dad kept yelling at her. I don't understand what they were talking about but we just watched him yell at her then he did something g I never I though he would do... he ummm. He punched her in the face that's when Zabdiel ran to him tackling him to the ground and I helped my mom up. -At this point I was sobbing.- Then before we knew it my dad had Zabdiel pinned to the ground he was full on beating him up. My mom tried to pull him away but he pushed her. Then I tried to pull him off but then he punched me in the stomach pushing me towards the table and me stumbling down to the ground. I noticed that I was bleeding. When he pushed me to the table I scraped my self on the edge of it. I didn't even realize that he had hit me that hard. That's how I got this scar. - I lifted up my shirt showing him the scar at the right side of my stomach. Then I pulled my shirt back down.- After that I didn't know what to do. Zabdiel was at the verge of passing out maybe my dad even beating him to death so I had to react fast. I didn't... I didn't know what to do so I just reacted. I grabbed a pan that was sitting out on  the stove and I.. I hit him with it as hard as a could! At that point Zabdiel had passed out and  my dad was now on the ground. My mom rushed  towards me embracing me in a hug then I realized something. There was blood coming out from the right side of his head. -I started to sob uncontrollably.- He... he was dead! - I managed to say in between breaths.-

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July 16, 2018✨

I'm so sorry for the long wait on this chapter. I wrote 3 drafts of this. One was a flashback scene on everything and the other was on Joel's perspective as Lizeth told the story. I didn't like how those two ended up so I decided to publish this one. I hope you guys liked it! What do you think about her "secret"? Did you think it would be something like this or did it take you by total surprise? Leave me a comment! I want to know.😆

There is 2 parts to this chapter so I will be uploading part 2 in a couple of hours. I haven't written part 2 yet.🙁

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