"Lifeless. I had no thoughts, no visions, I didn't move. Just, dead."// In which boyband member Zach Herron must face torments, find himself, and also fight for his young requited love.
completed: december 25th, 2018
thank you again to @happyforherr...
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Trying to put it into words is basically useless. It wouldn't make any real sense. You'd have to experience it yourself, but I felt dead. Lifeless. I had no thoughts, no visions, I didn't move. Just, dead. Honestly, I didn't know anything until I had "woken up." As much as I hated admitting it, it really was a resting break. Of course, I was not aware of anything until my eyes just flashed open. Even then, everything was foggy.
There's sun shining so brightly through my window, I have to squint some to shield my eyesight. My feet stumble to the doorway, making a loud sound when I nearly trip. As I stand still, my mind tries to figure out what has happened, what is happening. I continuously blink, trying to gain some sort of memory. As far as I'm concerned, I couldn't sleep at all so how is it that I had just woken up?
Footsteps are audible outside my door before Daniel and Jonah burst in, relief smothered on their faces. Daniel approaches me first, with a smile. A genuine smile. Did I miss something? "Zach," he says slowly, placing a warm hand on my shoulder. His blue eyes show all sorts of emotions.
"Daniel... what's going on?" I ask, the sound of my voice feeling strange to my ears. "W-what's happened?" I add, suddenly becoming impatient. This feeling is growing in my stomach, my heart. There has to be a reason behind the happiness that radiates off my two friends. They no longer feel cold, but rather warm.
The blue eyed boy in front of me shifts, not looking at me any longer. He glances at Jonah, who stands still behind him, then looks back at me. "Listen, Zach... let's sit down," he responds, leading me to my bed.
"Tell me, Daniel," I demand my patience getting quite thin.
"Believe me, Zach, you're going to want to sit down for this," he persists, raising his tone slightly. We both sit down and Jonah stays in the same spot, leaning on the, now shut, door a little. Daniel stares into my eyes, his face regretful, yet happy, making my confusion skyrocket. "I-I'm just going to come right out and say it, alright?" he says after some silence. I nod eagerly, only wishing to understand. "Corbyn..." he sighs, "Corbyn drugged you."
My eyes widen. That was completely unexpected, especially from Corbyn. I thought he was the one that understood me. I feel undoubtably betrayed and Daniel just looks down. "Why?" I croak.
His eyes meet mine again and he looks immensely guilty. "We-we needed you to... sleep," he says quietly with tears in his eyes. I know they're real. I just do.
"Why? Because I'm crazy?!" I shoot back, standing up. My anger is building up. My own friends, basically my brothers, drugged me.
Daniel wipes away a tear as he stands up with me. "No! No...You're not crazy... but you were sleep deprived and it was making you lose control!" he tries to reason, but I shake my head.
