They don't understand. I want to talk to people. But every time I try, my heart races and I start to hyperventilate. No one knows, of course. Well, except a few close friends. Will I ever make a sound? Or stay a tongue-biter forever?
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So, I'm still grounded. I've been getting my phone back temporarily but I haven't updated. Life is stressful. But in other words, I'm trying out for Winter Guard next week and I hope I don't fuck up too much. Honestly, they might just tell me to leave and never return after the first day of tryouts. But I'm not giving up all hope. " Richelle's" sister did it in highschool and she said she's willing to let me practice with her flag. But I can't get it until next weekend. Then tryouts will be over. I don't even know when I'll find out if I'm in. I hope my friends are in. I'd be extremely lost without them. I mean, yeah. I have other friends there, but I don't know them. Like at all. Art club has been fun. My biology teacher is actually getting nicer and she's actually really funny ( and such a big mood ). Like today, we had a pep rally. She did a thing with the teachers and she had to pop one of the confetti things. Before we left, she put it up to her head, said " Put me out of my misery already", and pretended to shoot herself. If that isn't me, I don't know what is. She actual is getting a lot nicer and funnier with our class. She laughs a lot with us. ( I'm in a class with a bunch of bad kids and she calls the like 7 boys in our class her Freshmen Lost Boys and, as she says to the rest of the freshmen, " poor, lost little freshmen who can't even answer a problem" ) She doesn't have a lot of fun with her classes because she has mainly Seniors and Juniors. And they fucking suck. ( Sorry guys ) But anyway, I'm done ranting. Talk to you all soon, my little turtles
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