hope// 5SOS

18

Bella

"I want a bubble bath," I sighed, holding Ashton's arm as we got home.

"I think we might wait a bit for that, you showered on Saturday so we can probably get away with it for today,"

"So I can't do anything today?"

"You get to cuddle with me,"

"I want my friends over,"

"Who would help me take care of you?"

"Jasmin,"

He took my phone, sitting us down and composing a text for her. I hadn't seen any of my friends since before the Harry incident, but they'd all message to ask if I was ok because they don't agree either.

At least I sill had my friends.

"She's gonna come, I heard you didn't cause a fuss today,"

"I had a very good talk and if I can't change things, then I need to start not focusing on that. I was gonna have to get my teeth removed anyway so why cause a fuss and make it harder,"

I didn't know if he could tell what I was saying, but he nodded anyway.

"I'm glad you can think like that, it's really useful," he smiled.

"I taste blood,"

"Open up,"

Gently, he took the gauze out and replaced it, chucking it in the bin and grabbing some ice.

"Does it look ok"

"Yeah, he put some small stitches in so the bleeding should stop soon. You're gonna have to brush them tonight,"

"Michael can,"

He laughed, putting the tv on and wrapping a cover round me. Slowly, I leant into him and held the ice to my face. But then the doorbell rang.

Ash texted her to say she could come in, and I was more than relieved to see once of my friends.

"You look hot," she snorted, putting a bag down, "how are you?"

I shrugged, "depends what on,"

"Have you spoken to him?"

"Yeah,"

I gave her my phone, because my jaw was starting to ache, and let her read the message. As she did that, I cuddled into Ashton more and ended up with my back to Jaz.

"Maybe sit round here love, Bella seems to be more comfy like this," I heard him say to her, seeing her in my vision again.

"He's stupid,"

"Glad I have you,"

"Everyone was telling him not to,"

"But he said you were,"

"No?"

"I think communication is a bit lost, so you two would need to meet up with everyone and discuss it. Calum would rather you not go out before the holiday so you've healed but perhaps after,"

"We could use our groupchat,"

"Ok, do that now. What do you want to come out of it?"

"An apology to us all,"

Jasmin ended up the other side of Ashton so she could show me her phone. Jake and Holly were quick to come on, Kacey and Ben following before Harry.

He didn't say a word.

Jake and Ben claimed he was hardly tipsy. Kacey and Holly said he was talking to the girl all night. Jasmin agreed to both.

It was like a game of cluedo.

"This is starting to sound like a not so drunk kiss that he wanted,"

"And you can be sad, but this isn't you doing anything wrong, it's him," Ash reminded.

Harry gave an apology, a crap one again which said he needed time away, then briefly left the chat.

He'd basically played victim, and switched it back on me, saying he didn't feel comfortable or like it was honest.

"Bella,"

"Fuck off,"

I hit my head on Ashton's chest and cried.

Things I've told him about my dad, and he said I was lying. Who would lie about it? I opened up to him, and I had so much trust in him, and he didn't believe me.

When I saw him last week, he was all over me, so what changed? Probably that girl.

"How could I lie?" I choked out, both of them rubbing my back, "why did he change?"

"That girl he kissed? She's bullied every single person in our group but Harry. It wouldn't surprise me if she said something,"

"I love you Jaz, but would it be ok to be alone?"

"Yeah, if I don't see you before your holiday, have a good one. Jake will either sort Harry back out or give you a big hug when you get back," she laughed, "he's fuming,"

"Thankyou for coming,"

"Anytime, that's what best friends are for,"