All I Want

Chapter 75

Haizly
ALL I WANT

I decided to hang out with Kayden at his apartment. I miss hanging out with him and his bitch finally left him alone. She is super clingy!

We decided to have a movie day with junk food. Kayden cooked some enchiladas while I tried making cookies. They ended up being super hard so we left them.

"You know, since you love baking but end up not coming out good-," I scoff and swat Kayden's chest softly. "-my mom could teach you how to." With furrowed brows I looked uo at him.

"Your mom bakes?" He shrugs and nods.

"Used to. She used to bake for people who were having parties, they payed her. But when my mum and dad split up, she hasn't baked since." He shrugs.

"What did she usually make?" I ask putting some chicken in my mouth. He drops his fork on the plate and sighs.

"She would make cookies with the pecans and powder sugar." I moan.

"Maybe we should go over this weekend so she could make me some." We both giggled.

"I'm sure she'd love to." I smile.

"What about your dad?" I asked. His smile fades.

"He was an alcoholic. I haven't seen him in two years." He shrugs. "It's okay though, I have my mum. I know she loves me dearly." I put my hand on his shoulder.

"I'm sorry Kayden." He shakes his head and turns around, grabbing some more enchiladas and going back to the island.

I was sitting on the island while eating. The same island Kayden and I had sex on. It seems so long ago.

He seems to notice me looking and caressing the counter because he says, "are you thinking about that day we skipped school?" I bite my lip and nod.

"It seems long ago, hu?" He nods and takes another bite of the food.

"What's going on between you and Caleb? Something seems off between you two." My chest aches at the thought of Caleb.

"Um, well. . . about a week ago, Alessandro was in town. I called him and asked what he wanted from me. He said he wanted to make Caleb pay by taking me with him." I took a deep breath before talking again.

"I agreed to meet with him. And when we met at Adelaide street, I tricked him. And. . . I killed him." I said the last part slowly. His eyes go wide. "I know it sounds horrible, but I did it so Alessandro could leave us alone." He backs away from me, and I suddenly feel like he's afraid of me.

"Haizly, what's wrong with you?" He whispers while shaking his head. "You weren't like this before." I get off the island and tried walking towards him, but he walked around the island, ready to go to his bedroom.

"Just please don't talk to me." I whimper and watch him go in his room.

He's right. I wasn't like this. Ever since I found out about Caleb being in the mafia, I've changed. I thought it was good, I thought it was going to be okay.

But nothing's ever okay.

I turn and walk in the living room, collecting my stuff and walking out of his apartment.

I got in my car, starting it. I couldn't help but let the tears fall. I am so stupid. I really am. This is my fault. Caleb and Kayden won't talk to me.

Kayden fears me now. Caleb thinks I'm an idiot. I should just go to my mum's house and stay there since Caleb doesn't seem to be leaving my apartment.

When I got to the apartment, I walk in and see Caleb sitting on the table with some papers all over it.

I ignored him and walked in my bedroom. I grabned my bag I keep in my closet and start putting some clothes in it.

This is just temporary. I kept repeating in my head. I only grabbed clothes I would use and need. Like my work clothes. I go back tomorrow.

I know Celali will have my ass around the whole building tomorrow. And I know her hormones are going to be bad.

"What are you doing?" Caleb asks as he walks in the room.

"What does it look like?" I asked bitterly. I heard him coming closer, his hand gripping my arm.

"Where are you going?" I looked into his eyes and couldn't help but cry.

"Don't touch me." I know I don't want him to get away from me, but I'm just so upset right now.

"Haizly!" He yells. I sniffle and wrap my arms around myself. "Where are you going?" He asked again.

"Somewhere far from you." I muttered. "Somewhere far from all you!" I scream. His brows furrow.

"Who's all of us?" I sniffle and turn back around to continue packing.

"You, Kayden, this mafia shit." My voice cracks and it makes me sound desperate in a way.

"What did Kayden do? Did he do something?" He asks getting angry and ready to leave.

"No Caleb! It's what you do!" I cry. "I told him what's going on between us. How I killed Alessadro, about the mafia. He's afraid of me."

"That wasn't my fault. I was going to take care of it! I told you to stay here, not go out and do something like that!" He yells, catching me by surprise.

"But it was your fault," my voice is lower now. My voice was tired from all this. "Your in the mafia Caleb, you cause this. I had to do what I needed to do, I didn't want to be involved in this." His face softened again. I love him so much but I know it'd be best if we took some time off.

"Haizly, baby I'm so sorry." Tears welled up in his eyes. I shake my head.

"Caleb we need to take some time off." I finally say after a moment of silence. It hurts to say those words. I feel so horrible, I wish our lives could've been easier. I wish Caleb never thought about the Mafia when he was younger.

"No baby, I'll leave everything behind. Just please don't leave me." He cries. We're both messed up people. I thought we really deserved each other. We were both wrong.

I know some time in the future we will be back together, figuring this out together. It just hurts to leave him, and I know he's hurting too.

"No Caleb, you and I both know that we need this." I whisper. "And we also know that we're going to run back to each other, like we always do." Tears spilled from his eyes. He sobs and my chest aches for the hundred time today.

"I love you." He says grabbing my arm and pulling me close to him. His lips collide with mine.

I missed touching him. I miss the way his lips felt on mine. I could stand here with him and kiss him. I wish it were that simple.

"I love you." I whimpered out when we pulled away.

"I'll leave you, this is your place." He says. I hugged him one last time, inhaling his scent.

Minutes passed by and I was still standing. I hadn't noticed when Caleb left. I just stood, staring at the floor, nothing on my mind other than the kiss before.

We were doing so good.

Instead of unpacking the clothes, I lied down on my bed, a shirt of Caleb's on his side. Grabbing it I pulled it close to my chest, inhaling and crying softly.

I know we're going back for each other.