Dear Daery

- ACCIDAENTALLY -

Sorry, have to postpone update because I have to wake up early today to come to my friend seminar. 

Oh btw, I'm so happy yesterday re-reading all your comment and feedbacks. So I know what you have in your head so I have a friend to talk to, heu. Including that spam.

Please enjoy :)))))

"Be mine na~"

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"..." We stare into each other eyes for quite some times now. The heat rises from my cheeks to my head and to my brain. Now it's really burning like hell. I am not imagining a thing, right? Not even dreaming? Did he just... Confess?

We are on our own thought and just realized we have stared at each other for like five minutes now. I open up the blanket that we hid under it.

"It is hot isn't it?"

"Khrub. We are under the blanket for too long."

"Right. And the AC is off too." We laugh to cover our embarrassment. Awkward silence is enveloped between us. We only stare at my room's ceiling, we have not enough courage to see each other.

He clears his throat.

"Er- you can forget anything I said."

"I just- you know. Excited because the gifts I bought and without thinking it twice." We still stared at my beautiful ceiling. I never know that my ceiling is this interesting to be seen. There is a bird, a bright sky with a cloud and anything... Sorry, I am nervous here.

"I am sorry khrub, but please do not be mad at me." He continues.

"I- I- I'm just happy to be near you. More than happy if I may add. Please stay the same and not change any single thing you do to me na khrub."

"I- um... well... Stay to be my nong na. Don't block my number okay, and don't avoid me too."

"I- I don't know else what to say. Aren't you supposed to say something?" I am about to open my mouth but he stops me here.

"No! Please do not say anything. I am afraid of your answer. Just forget it. Let just say it's a random midnight talk"

"Haha, it isn't midnight either. Now I'm blabbering."

Don't ask me! I am petrified since he said that 'mine' thing. I can feel there is this huge butterfly fluttering on my stomach. I bet I can puke a rainbow.

"We should have breakfast isn't it?"

He laughs to cover the awkwardness between us.

"I think I have to go back to my dorm. You want to sleep, right? Sleep well na~." He wants to ruffles my hair but he insisted.

I hug him so tight before he is able to leave the bed. I am confused. I don't trust my luck. I'm afraid once I have him. I might be able to lose him someday. Especially three years from now.

He hugs me back and I buried my face on his chest.

I know I was mean here not to answer his question. I'm not sure yet about this feeling. I know that Sin already told me about 'listen to your heart' thing. But somewhere deep-deep down there, there is this me who still protecting me from getting hurt.

Thank God, he seems to understand that I was a little bit overwhelmed about this. He is sorry-ing a lot and he told me not to think about that, I should focus more on upcoming final exams. He already promises he will be back at me so he will wait as long as I want to think. Because he wants to start everything right, clean and clear, he wants a healthy relationship. I can only nod to his suggestion.