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❦ Chapter 63 ❦

Kim Taehyung

Suddenly, I stopped defending myself when Jeongguk had finished his sentence. Little tears still flowed down my cheeks and I lifted my head to look at Jeongguk's face. He seemed neutral, you couldn't read any emotions out of it.

Jeongguk raised his hand to wipe away my tears as he said with a serious, yet gentle voice, "All people today want this perfect image of a relationship that is pressed into your damn face every day. But what does this relationship say? Only that you belong to someone, but if you can see that you are together, then why the status relationship, huh?"

I sniffed loudly, while I strangely had put my hands around Jeongguk's right wrist and looked down at my lap. I just wanted to get away from him at all costs, but now his painful words were buzzing around in my head and didn't left me alone. They actually even made sense, but... but... I bit my lips.

But what...? His words make sense... More than that everything else..., I said to myself in my thoughts and digged my fingernails into his wrist. Silently, Jeongguk allowed this to happen and caressed my back with one hand. At some point, however, Jeongguk spoke again, "So tell me, Taehyung. What does a relationship say about two people?"

Lost in thoughts, I leaned my forehead against his chest and closed my eyes, already knowing that Jeongguk was right and that my hope that we could become a couple, was pointless from the beginning. Whimpering I finally said, "Nothing. A relationship says absolutely nothing about two people. It's meaningless like you said"

Finally, I let go of his wrist and digged my fingers into his shoulders instead, needed some support and at that moment, he was the only one I had. If I hadn't been so innocent and often trapped in my world where I imagined everything to be perfect, his words would never have hit me that hard and hurt me. But that was a stupid consequence now with which I had to live.

When I only thought of never introducing Jeongguk as my boyfriend to my parents, I became incredibly sad. They would certainly have been so happy about this.

"Come on...", Jeongguk said calmly and gently lifted me onto his arms, "I'll make you a hot bath. This will  distract you and relieve your pain". I nodded weakly and hid my face at his neck. I didn't have the strength to reply anyway. My heart hadn't recovered after his hard words yet and it would probably take a while before this pain would disappear. Although my skin was tingling when Jeongguk touched me, I could only concentrate on the hideous feeling in my chest.

When I had to think of my best friends Yoongi and Jimin, I even became a little jealous. After all, they proclaimed to everyone, without any inhibitions, that they were in a relationship and showed all the people around them the incredible love they had for each other. Jeongguk and I would never do that. We weren't together, we were just... friends.

Friends with certain benefits. Many would advise me to just leave Jeongguk and meet someone new, but I couldn't do that. Once, Jimin was so heartbroken when Yoongi and he broke up because of a fight and almost died because of his lovesickness. The same would happen to me, so I didn't want to do this to myself.

Jeongguk gently placed me on the toilet bowl and unbuttoned my shirt carefully. He probably thought I would knock his hands off, but I would never think of anything like that. You can call me naive, but I forgive Jeongguk. I loved him too much than I could hate him, because I had too much nice moments with him and I was more than grateful to him for my first time.

I just had to recover a little and accept that Jeongguk didn't want to have a relationship. After Jeongguk unbuttoned my shirt and stripped it off my shoulders, he placed his hands on the waistband of my boxers, but looked me in the face and waited for my permission, which I gave him in the form of a short nod.

But he didn't take them off, but stood up a little to give me a lovely kiss on the lips. But I only returned this kiss after a few seconds.

Jeongguk... No matter how much you will hurt me in the future... I accept it.... I accept everything so I can be in your near, because I love you so much...

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Author's note: well well well 🤭♥️✨
What do you think? Is there going to be a happy end? 🤪💦✨
Let's see! ♥️💞🌺

~ ggukstaee 🌺