Artificial Love || Minho

29 || Memories

(Warning: Slightly gruesome, you can skip it, it's not necessary to read Lee know's past to to understand everything :,] )

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Three days have passed since the incident from that night.

Everything felt so surreal, adrenaline deciding to visit my body at random times throughout the day. I couldn't eat much; as while my mind was filled with thoughts of you, the butterflies took up my stomach along with my crimson red cheeks. You were all I could even think about, weather it would be working, writing, lying in bed, or even spending time with Jisung; the images of the scene drowned up with every inch and gap of my head.

I was a mess, to say the least of it, and of course with the squirrel boy taking care of me, he obviously noticed.

"You're going back today." Was what he said, the most stern I've seen him since the longest time. "I can't see you like this anymore. You need to at least talk to him."

And it mean, it was easier said than done.

I stare up at the building, a familiar memory feeling fresh in my mind. I had prepared myself, mentally, but forming the words out loud was the hard part.

I take in a deep sigh, and hurry inside, to my office. I try to avoid the confused gazes of my coworkers as I scuttle passed.

As I walk through the hall where I first chased after you, I almost feel like laughing. We've come a long way, haven't we?

I finally reach the familiar office door, the same one I walked through everyday ever since we were together.

I'll be moving my stuff today... But you'll still be there until I leave.

I suddenly feel my breath hitch in my chest, as I wrap my hand slowly around the handle.

Squeezing my eyes shut so hard I feel tears begin to form, I loosen my grip.

I can't do it. I can't.

I stared down at the floor, but a bittersweet voice brings me out of my trance. "Minah? Is that you?"

My eyes widen.

You were there. I knew you were. I could feel the piercing gaze bore through me, questioning eyes burning as all I could bring myself to do was to look down.

"L-Lee know..."

Suddenly all my senses fire, and I run to hide around the corner. I bury my face in my hands, almost ashamed.

I want to tell you, but I can't bring myself to do it.

Why?

I take a deep breath, my mind still a sprawling mess of clunky words and notes. I still couldn't fully think straight, but there's one thing I was sure of.

I can't be pathetic.

Not like this.

I gather my thoughts, and try to calm the spiraling mess of emotions- butterflies in my stomach.

I try to steady my breath, but no matter what I do it remains shaky and quick. The river of tears from my eyes wouldn't stop either- they continued to flow, despite my best efforts to try and scrub them away.

And that's when I heard footsteps draw closer.

I gulp, mind immediately blaring into panic. A few more seconds, give me time to recollect myself.